BABYTEARS

30.11.11

2011-12-01T22:47:00.001+08:00

30.11.11

Didn't meet up with baby as he pissed me off due to what he promised n broke it! Well e best part is to him it's normal.! Thanks man!!

Ifuckinghateyounow!!!

29.11.11

2011-12-01T00:10:00.001+08:00

Well today was as usual. Went work rush the same thing.. Something happened at work really piss people off.! Someone just get mad for nothing and treated you like you owe her 100x billion!! Fuck up character you got!!

Yeah! Tonight we headed in JB with nic and baby:) we headed to makan first then petrol:) I eaten Maggie gerong:) nic eat e same as me just that in his Maggie got chicken meat:) baby eat mee wrap in egg:)

We eat.drink.chat & smoke its nice catching up with nic:) tonight e makan and petrol we treated him s a belated birthday celebration:) hope he likes~

Headed home and get clean up then lastly heading to bed:)

28.11.11

2011-11-28T23:21:00.001+08:00

Quarrel with him. Am I childish or am I right? Why he can act till it's so normal for him? When I already got myself angry bt crying!

Why do I always cry during quarrels?! Is my tears all so cheap or it's just so easy to flows out n filled my eyes?

Lovehim with all my heart give in whatever I could..but what I get myself in return was all this..likes my effort my heart my tears my soul was pour down into e drain.

When will you start to treat me better than now? When will you start to be nicer to me than now? When will you love me like e way iloveyou?

Full of unanswered questions..

27.11.11

2011-11-28T05:51:00.001+08:00

Well today is nothing much as I only stayed at baby house n at night we headed in jb to pump petrol:)

Going in was ok not much jam. But when we headed back sg it jam like hell.! We was stuck in e jam for at least an hour! Stupid gov who only open 3counters when you know it's peak hour! All Malaysian going back sg s Monday will b working! Every bike was squeezing here n there!

Baby n I was sweating like hell furthermore he push his bike then on his engine.yet malaysian will always be Malaysian! If they can squeeze they will just squeeze dn even bother will you allow or not!

Reached home late and sleep late:(
I not enough slp I'm alright just hope baby will have enough sleep:)

Goodnight!

26.11.11

2011-11-27T10:40:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a past today is a present tomorrow is a future.

I've fun yesterday although we didn't really go anywhr. We went to meet up with baby's bike friends again and headed to town to buys tickets for our twilight saga breaking dawn!

After buying we headed to makan plc! Baby eat prata I didn't eat only drink milo:)) but well he always feed me lah! Hahaha! After makan we headed back town to meet e another bike guy s he will b going movie with us:)

Well e movie was 8/10! Cos baby nearly fall aslp in e starting s they only kept talking and no actions.but when e part bella pregnant you can really see she's getting older n older s e baby taking all her health! And e baby really grow go fast in her! But e sad part was edward lost her during e birth s Bella die! Edward kept biting her neck.hand.leg! And even give her injection but it don't works on her!! He cried! It's touching s you could see he really love her so much! Between e baby he choose his wife! Thumbs up! That's how a real good husband should be! Agree? Hahaha!

After movie we headed to makan! We went to eat Mac breakfast! I'm soo getting fatter n fatter!! Hahahaha! Headed home after breakfast!

Reached home see the time its already 5am plus! Wash up and headed to bed:)

What a wonderful night!

25.11.11

2011-11-26T04:00:00.001+08:00

As usual went to work. Wasn't feeling well this few days but I keep endure so I won't b touching any leave or mc:) well done my job till 6.30 meet serene under office took a stick n headed home.

Baby fetched me around 7.20pm:) headed back to his house around 11pm headed to JB went in to pump petrol:)

Back in SG headed straight to find baby's bike friends:) slack with them at woodland ESSO around 12am plus one of e guy said hungry n wanna go makan. So we headed to geylang for supper:) reached there around 1am plus.. Eat.slack.smoke.talk. Suddenly got a old man walked towards us n asking for a stick of cig! Lucky we didn't put any cig box on e table! If not we will need to give him a stick! Headed home around 3am plus..

And now have reached home.. Feel so sleepy n tired turning in soon!

Goodnight.sweet dreams to all my loves ones.!

24.11.11

2011-11-24T21:30:00.001+08:00

Today went to work alone s my babe went chartis:(

Actually don't wanna go work in e morning de because my cramp was damn painful n I'm damn tired n sleepy.. Bt end up I still drag myself to work. All I think was I can endure n don't touch my leave n mc!

Baby fall sick too! He took mc. Yet I went to work. I miss my baby so much!

Today at work I'm speechless about it! So I won't be saying anything link to work..hahaha! But there's a happy thing I ended work at 6.30pm! Haha!

Goodnight I'm off to my lala land~

23.11.11

2011-11-24T00:10:00.001+08:00

Today was a suck day! Although I End work early but it's suck as my da yi ma came to visit me le:( really pain like hell as it cramp!! Fuck e whole day!! Plus I have to rush my work as I reached e deadline already! Management only want you to complete your work don't even bother on how much time you need.! Fuck my company!

Want employee to finish work on time but when employee can't manage n stay for OT just to complete?
What we get in return? No OT pay!

Well the happy thing today is I'm just back from JB:) went in to pump petrol with baby and Nic also Nic's friends:)

Finally get to breath! I get my cig Liao!
Shiok ar!!

Goodnight going bath n turn in:))

21.11.11

2011-11-21T23:09:00.001+08:00

At home without you.. It always give me a feeling that Im missing something..
And e thing had become apart of my life..

Baby all I wants to say is Imissyou..

30.10

2011-10-30T14:24:00.002+08:00

its been a very very long time ever since i blog.
kinda missing blogging now :) so I'm BACK~~!

i'm @ baby house now as yesterday i'm here already.
yesterday i went out with my baby's mother & sister.
we went to baby's mother's cousin house. went there to have lunch.
went there to talk to the aunty n uncle:) they are friendly~!

well about work currently im working at the another office.
i'm not longer working as a customer officer because i didn't hit traget.
so they transfer me to another office also located at kovan :)
currently i'm working as front line officer. printing out all the cases.
well i can't say current job have no stress because there's still stress!
every month i need to print about 1400cases and need to have enough!
if its not enough i need to call customer till i reach 1400cases!!

hmm tomorrow need to work again.. why can't our weekend be longer?!
getting piss off with someone at work and i really hate her for life~!!
will update about her when i have the time~! i bet everyone will hate her too!

signing off~

26.06.10

2011-06-26T21:18:00.001+08:00

i'm always trying so hard to find the correct guy.
but when i found you, i lost you.

why love is so hard for me to hold on?
why love was never meant to be mine?

i love you for who you are and what you are.
but you love me by being selfish to me.

whenever your not by me, i cry in silent for your present.

02.06.11

2011-06-03T00:40:00.002+08:00

You went to 2nd link.. With your group of friends..
But why cant you just go home at e timing that we said?
Why guys is all like that when they are with friends they
Will forget about their girlfriend! I'm so worries about you!
Yet you could tell me your still in there talking to friends!
Why can't come back then you guys talk?!!

I'm feeling old illness now.. All thanks to you!!
Went in there at 10pm plus! Till now still don't know how to go home!!
Fuck you and your friends! They tml can wake up on time!!
Can you?! If you can't please know where is your limit!!
They have no girlfriend..so you also feel like e same s them?!!
If yes, please do inform me then..

Thank you for tonight!
Silly me still kept waiting when I know it's lies!!

1/6/11

2011-06-01T22:43:00.002+08:00

Tonight I'm at BB house for e night..tml will be going work with him:)
Well just wondering why is him like this..
Talking to friends on line or meet up for chatting he can talk nicely!!
But well to me he's always rising his voice on top of his max voice!!
Can anyone tell me is this normal for a boyfriend to treat a girlfriend?
Or this treatment means you're not longer important and not loving u?

Nothing happened at work. Just that I can not longer take mc or leave!
Because I kanna warning letter! Hahaha! Call me pro if you wish too:)
In my this new line all I can say is STRESS! nothing else!
Everyday thinking how to hit target! Thinking how to close more cases!
Even when you kept following up carefully you will still lose the customer!
So how not to be stress?! Hai~! I wish I can have more heart in this line!

Goodnight everyone:)
I l

2011-05-24T23:21:00.002+08:00

There's so many things running in my mind tonight. Lying down on my bed hugging my blanket..
But my mind seem to keep thinking or things that I don't wish to think about

和你在一起，是否是个错的选择？发实我会爱你到永远，是否是个错事?
Being together with you was it a wrong choice? Swear I will love you forever was it a mistake?
I really don't know anymore. Why do we have so much to go thru?
Baby, I hope to know your answer for me. I wish to know will you hold my hand n walk down the years with me?
I wish to know will you still love me like how I love you after 10years?
Please hold me tight and tell me. I'm lost right now...I need you..

Tonight I've meet baby for dinner @plaza and went home after our full dinner..
Even thru its just a short hour of meeting but as long as I get to see you I'm happy with that.
But are you? Will you? I wants to know your feeling! I wish to know what's your thinking too!
Baby is having headache tonight, he slept early than me tonight.. I miss him so much.. Do he know?

Goodnight everyone.

20.05.2011

2011-05-21T01:37:00.002+08:00

it's been so long since I last update:) well time really passes so fast that my blog got so rusty!
Hmm so fast my & baby have reached our 1year +! 和他在一起我可以放弃一切！只要能和他一起
I've changed a job already since last year~ well currently working as a customer services officer
Sound like so high rank right? Neh! It's not as easy as you think it is I can only remember customer is always right!

05.12

2010-12-05T16:51:00.005+08:00

Afternoon,

Parents n both my sister is coming BACK to Singapore!
i miss them lot~

BB now sleeping tight on my bed..yesterday i sleep @ 5AM plus he slept 6AM..
yesterday have a movies night with BB. we watched 3 different movies :) till 3AM plus..
then off everything in living room went in room to use computers. i fall asleep while using.
when i wake up i see the time its 5AM plus..so lie down nicely n ORHORH~!hahahas

im so sorry BB i didnt know your nose will get sensitive towards Boy hair..so sorry.
but no choice yesterday night i locked Boy outside my room yet! this morning he scratch my poor wooden door! sure going get Fuck by parents :( tonight BB going home le..so sad :(

02.11

2010-12-02T01:48:00.001+08:00

Hello earth,

goodmorning. everyone.
let me pray to god first as my family will be setting off to Genting Highland tonight.
they will be leaving me by 11pm tonight. im sure gonna cry badly as im a cry baby.
plus im very very sticky towards my parents..everyone knows..hahahas :)
i pray they go in 1 piece they wil return in 1 piece! I MISS YOU ALL TONS!! ENJOY!

Went to work as usual.
Just don't understand WHY the world is full with unhappiness!
Just don't understand WHY the world is full with Jealousy!
Just don't understand WHY the world is full with UNFAIR-NESS!

Some people are just born to be a 2headed snake. whereby some just wanted to be outcast.
some wanna be outcast is because she/him is not interested in what 2headed snake is doing!
so please all 2headed snake please just GET OUT OF MY WAY OR BEST OUT OF MY LIFE!
being outcast is never wanted in my life list.But you girls listed me in yours, so you in mine too!
if you girls wanna go around and gossip about me well all ii can say is BE MY GUEST :)
you can say whatever nasty things you want or even back stab me seriously! im used to it!
the day you girls start to draw the line its when that saturday start. so be it. i've nothing 2 lose!

UNHAPPY.
With the whole lot of people in my office and the blinded boss i have now.seriously he SUX!

1. the people in my office love to gossip about me. why? i have totally no ideal.
all i know maybe because 1 of the girl used to be very close with my BB last time..
maybe she's jealous of me having him now..well from what i know thru BB is they are like PTS.
girl is attached but BB wasn't. they are so called couple in the whole warehouse. but when i get
into this company they aren't on good terms. so i don't think its my problem! its you JEALOUS!

2.there's this blinded boss. why? i first went into this company i thought he's nice.
but after time and time i started to grow Hate in my for him! its like he request me work 2nd shift. as i keen on staying there and due to all my late-ness i agreed to as it can make my attendance better. yet time to time i do as all his wish. i learn almost all interco shipment..
yet 1 day..i went to see him on telling him what's happening within me n 2 Bitches.
he told me he only want me here for POD. all shipment will be taken back to Bitch.. best is..
he told me he will never ever convert me into their staff! why? because i can't get along with the
2 B.I.T.C.H who's in the office im. 1 is team leader. 2 is Nobody normal admin!but after weeks..he converted Worm!the guy who learn lesser things than me..get converted!
i cried during that day. it hurts! but who cares about my feelings.? every1 was happy in there!
after that day every1 treated me as like i don't excit in there office on that seat! even boss too!!

please tell me what will you do when you get this type of Boss and working friends?

JEALOUS.
why human just don't want to understand the whole picture then start to say people?
Bitch, if you think i snatched your Lover (BB) please do let me know about it!
because from what i know i did nothing wrong within the both of you! and you are the 1 who drawed the line whereby he didn't say or do anything wrong to you!its just a normal text send wrongly!so if your jealous about me let me know okie! dont be a B.I.T.C.H!

10.11

2010-11-10T15:54:00.002+08:00

As you know my blog is very very rusty le...
i was busy with work so is my dating with BB :)
well there many things that happened @ work place.
so many things i learn and so many things i feel UNFAIR.

My contact ends early year on..but boss keep didnt want to convert me..
due to my attendance he dont wanna convert..so i put in effort..
then months later he told me he need me go to 2nd shift..i agreed with him.
maybe by going 2nd shift i can get my convert then..this what i think.
yet..months passes nothing was told and done..
i went to ask boss as i have wait enough! the answer he gave really really FUCK!
......
-he said : he wont be converting me as im always taking leave nor mc.
-my mind : hey! im a human! and please everyone know i have illness!
-he said : 2nd because i couldnt click with that 2 BITCHES in the office.
-my mind : HELLO! it wasnt me the 1 who cnt click!! its THEM! i tried but did they?
-he said : mostly 2BITCHES prefer Worm than me..maybe cos im a girl.
-my mind : OF COS im a girl! if not what bapo? FUCK YOU BITCH!!
......
throughout this chat with boss i can really tell this boss FUCK like a PUSSY!
hire me just because 1 main reason! i cant click with the BITCHES?!!
im not like the worm! 24 years old this year still love to carry balls for people!
please BITCH if you dont like me just say lah! dont need act like you know nothing!

FUCK KL! FUCK YL! FUCK AC! FUCK YC! FUCK the most is CEVA!
a very shit company with low pay! and also a very shit company with that BOSS!
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Today didnt went to work as im not feeling well again..
really dont know when can i get a healthy body..i need that.
last week didnt went to work for 4days le..due to my stomach.
so is today..hai im down with running nose too..feel so shit now!

BB your sleeping now..yet i cant fall asleep..why? why didnt you pull me in too?
why left me alone on this earth not sleeping..i need my NICOTINE too..
but yesterday forget to buy..this morning planned to go work then buy..
who know my period came n make me cramp like hell..! so didnt get 2 buy!!
today really sux to the max!! BB injures still haven recover..also dont know when..
he will then be going back to work..this 2weeks he didnt go work get unpaid liao.
if he really gonna have 1month m.c i guess the next month we gonna struggle le..
BB have to pay his bike and Christmas coming too.wanna go have fun~!

BB i hope you have a speedy recover!
now i couldnt even hug you as you will feel pain.
i couldnt even play with you as you will feel uneasy.
BB please hurry heal yourself well..accompany me!

29.09

2010-09-29T00:47:00.000+08:00

Monday my mood was the lowest of everyday..

BB didnt turn up for work today..and sleep all the way till evening.

i miss him like nuts.and well things @ work place really SUX~!

i hate them both now.behind me that 1 already gave up as we never talk le.

the another just really piss me off~!

to BITCH~!

who the fuck you think you are to say that to me.?

your the team lead so what!? big fuck huh?!

you where not happy?! not happy because i took your close friend(BB)?!

or because your STUPID Boyfriend dont treat you like how BB treat me?

thats why your so damn jealous about me?! please WAKE UP yourself!!

your boyfriend flirting outside got nothing linked to me! stop showing me..

all your SHIT & FUCK attitude and temper lah~! if your so not happy come 2 me!

i can help you to make you happy~~ i give you a BIG SLAP then you will b happy!

............................

im really really tired le..keep wanna talk to boss always dont get the right time~!

i really break down in emotions that nightt..i cry myself out alone in the dark room.

no one was by my side.BB was @ home.he having headache and even he okie..

he wont come up to my house.cos of some reason..i just wish he wasnt that concern..

wish he can just concern only about me and not other things that useless..

but what to do can only blame myself..when i need him, he is always concern abt that.

thats why never come up after late night.haix..when can he really do what he promise?

im waiting and waiting but its been 7months~~that day never come..

To BB..

im getting tired of expecting that much from you le.you told me im not asking that much.

but deep down in me, i guess that day will never come.. i told you the way they are..

yet your still concerning so much in head..no matter how much i wish your here..

you will never ever appear..its so hurtful and disappointing..BB im giving up already..

whenever we on this topic nice words will come from you..but no action taken..why???

drop this topic forever then...

im tired of everything...so tired...release me and show me the way to break~!

18.09

2010-09-18T15:22:00.002+08:00

hello~!

I'm just too bored @work now.BB was @ his own office so is me~~
well my lunch was settle just now due to my HUNGRY BB~!hahahas!
he asked me go cook Maggie!HUMPF! but hahahahahas! end up he WASH!
after mummum we headed for a stick :)) that's what Smoker ARE~!hahahas!
Uncle came over 2 smoke too.He's my Favorite Uncle in this work place~!
Sometimes funny && he's the only 1 buy me cake for birthday @ work place!
He's like my Grandfather you know?hahahahahas :))

After work ends I'm going over to his place. Need a rest..soon falling sick :(
this morning woke up with running nose~!BLEAHZ! no choice its my ON day.
AndAnd BB is already @ house downstairs waiting for me. *RUSHED* out~!
BB never took off his helmet so guess he wanna go off fast. Lucky! I lighted my stick before going over 2 him~! hahahahas! If not i won't get the chance 2..then now @ work liao..
i feel like im having fever~~~HOT~~~COLD~~~ahhhhhhhhhhhh!! Sick STAY AWAY!

Just now 2nd Manager gave everyone 1 wedding card its his son wedding.
BB said we will be going together~! and keep irritate me by asking me wear the Malay Shirt!
HUMPF~! this wedding is for work staffs so i WONT be wearing that on that day~!
hahahahahahahahas! you can wear yours if you want too~~ i don't mind :)

BB i miss you...
ii going log off everything ii need some rest now..

14.09

2010-09-14T02:09:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF~

just here to post this.
i thank my BB alot~because he SURPRISE me so much today~
buy me a cake & last min he show me a green shinny lil heart card!
made by himself!LOVE him 2 the MAX!hahahahahs :))

BB this post is for you alone!
thank you for being wit me for the past 7months~
today was my Birthday & our anniversary too~!
i miss you when you send me home..im loving you so much!
dear tml lets just enjoy the day without any stress can we?

11.07.2010

2010-07-11T19:09:00.002+08:00

tonight might be or might not be meeting BiBi.
he's at home sleeping tightly as im @ grandmother's house.
well he plan to come meet me later after ii get home.
but till now after my dinner ii still can't get thru his phone:(

think tonight not meeting.as soccer is FINAL.

10.07.2010

2010-07-10T07:30:00.000+08:00

BiBi's facebook game :))
saw my name on the photo.?and there's a character.?
look at the shirt is BiBi buy ONLY for me:)thanks!
hahahahas~well its just a game but he's very calculative!

everyday will help "BiBi" to play his game :)
no matter rain or shine.im always playing for him.
well sometimes even after working hours im playing.

but well there's times im tired of playing and wanna rest.
ii would ask him and he will disturb me lo..hahahas :))
but well sometimes ii say im nt gonna play is i will play.!
he know me well too so he know what i mean real.

*This few days*
yesterday wanna catch the 1st NDP preview but well ended when we reached.
how sad it was that we didn't get to see the fireworks :( we both feel sad.
but well headed down to Town buy my slipper and went over to buy movie ticket.
we will be watching midnight movie tonight :)) no rush for us so can.

after movie BiBi bring me go down to singapore flyer there :)
was so silent and peace there during midnight.we reached there about 4am plus.
chit-chat there and enjoy our lovely view there :)) about 5am plus we plan to go elsewhere.
but never went there so he send me home straight. ii reached home about 6am morning!
really love being with him 4 every moment :) never ever thought we could be that enjoying.

BiBi,
we are going be half a year soon.but there's still many things we never know about.
i wanna know more about you!

2.7.2010

2010-07-03T13:17:00.000+08:00

2.7.2010

2010-07-02T01:17:00.000+08:00

This post is for my working place.

maybe your wan me out of this office but ii choose to STAY.

no matter how your treat me.i will grow stronger each day with all your hurt words.

Dear.thanks for being there for me every single day.only you know what shit im taking.

26.06.2010

2010-06-26T01:05:00.001+08:00

hello,

its been so long..since last post...
well my life is BORING as usual.
but with "You" is never boring!
hahahahahas :)) because "You" just know how to irritate me!
but ii got to A-D-M-I-T!yeah! i Love it :))
it can just brighten up my days and make me smiles.

well just few weeks ago did contact "GQ".
heard that he's doing great and have move on with life.

im happy for him too.but just don't understand..
why do HUMAN love to throw or dump things then find it back?
ii don't know why.!well for that relationship with him..
do admit have fun and enjoyed :) but he's very into finance :(
that's the most i HATE!hahahahas! well what past is past..
we have go on.good luck!

tonight im been working ever since 9am!
till just now 12am then ii finish all my filing!
due to the Queen ii got to finish them!so what can ii say?
ii just pump myself with full petrol then START working like MAD!
seriously im NOT HAPPY during MONDAY - FRIDAY!
there's always 2Queen in my office..im just so UNLUCKY!!

whatever it is..the treating the hurtful words..
i won't let it affect me! because ii have a very good "You".
always there for me through sometimes ii still get nag back.
but ii know you mean good to me.that's why you nag :) right?
well all ii can say is...
BIG THANK YOU!!MUACKX!!~

if there wasn't you..ii guess by now im leaving this job..
im a very very emotionals girl.ii can get upset by just a word.
and the rest of my day will be affected by the emotion im having.
so ii do thank "You"! can ii say it here.? ilove"YOU"!

as for lover and family they know who "You" means..
someone so important in my life and he's playing a role in my heart!
he's the missing piece i've been looking for :))

30.05.2010

2010-05-30T18:59:00.003+08:00

im @ work place now..althought its sunday.
ii accompany "someone" to come back for his stuff.
well happened to know that "someone" is working 2.
didn't walk over to my office to say hello..just sit @ his office.
well ii don't know why ii didn't wanna walk over..
maybe im tired..
maybe ii think no need to..
maybe im seeing her tml..
maybe ii just don't bother...
ii guess my answer is ALL ABOVE :))

now im blogging..yesterday night event.
yesterday night
- ended work @ 7.30pm
-reached home around 8pm.
-bath & get ready to wait.
-get fetched @ 9pm plus.
reached PowerHouse @ 10.30 after parked bike.
asked Lover to get me a HotDog bread as ii didn't eat dinner.
then "someone" asked Lover 2 buy hot sweets.so she did :))
meet them where we parked bike..when walking over..
i FEED everyone bread with my HAND :)) only yisheng never.
well thanks everyone for eating!hahahahahaha~ TAI AI NI LE^^

we reached the long Q..!!!!standing there as we chat and play.
well its been long since we Last Club.long time never see them..
as we are standing.."someone" saw his friend as a bouncer(dn nod hw spell)
working @ dragonfly.*something happened*
we manage to get in and here we GO!!!have some FUN!!

Inside of PowerHouse is like its fully PACKED!
well but we still can get our way to the second floor.
went there we were looking for "Brother" friends.
we planned to open 1bottle.Pay by yisheng & Bro :))
but sadly there isn't any seats for us to sit down le..
so all we can and we could was to stand there and pour ^^
its the first time we open bottle in PowerHouse !! CLAPS~
im so having fun when we keep drink & played (5.10.15.all)
we played 4persons together ^^ its fun & nice sia~hahahas!
around 12am plus we HIT the dance floor!!yeah!fav timing^^

its like both Girls as high and both on the dancing mood!
as usual im dancing with Lover..suddenly change to Bro.
then back to "someone" so happening sia~but Love 3 night!
its like it never been so fun before :))
when we enjoying we happened to see "Cartoon" friend.
the guy who name "kelvin" ii think spell like this..

around 2am plus we went up to the second floor again!
get our bottle open again :)) we left some so ask them keep.
but we open and drink "On The Rock"!pour str8 in mouth^^
after doing that we walk st8 into the Fully Packed Dance Floor!

im here to say sorry to Baby,Brother,Lover,Yisheng.
ii know that ii can't hold my acholo that well but well..
ii just wanna Party that Night Long.hope you understand.
for Baby ii know your angry and fuck up with me.iknow^^
but ii just wanna relax and have fun :)) enjoy myself with you & friends.
if im asking too much im sorry.i know ii got to sit on bike later.
but ii really didn't go over limit.im awake after Hitting Dance Floor^^

our night end so early as we went off @ 4am.
their songs is more and more not nice starting @ 3am.
Baby was looking so bored.hungry.sleepy..so suggest that we go.
ended up all agreed and all headed over to 24hours M.A.C ^^
there's 5 of us. 2 eating meal . the rest drink only..
guess who's the 2 who's eating meal .?hahahahaha :))
answer : ME & BABY~
everyone left early..1st Lover went home by cab.
2nd Brother & Yisheng by cab.
3rd Baby & me by walking back 2 parking lot.

thanks guys im having such a wonderful night yesterday.

Message 2 B.
ii hope your enjoying your night there.
althought the songs there was REPEATING!
i know you will get bored as your nt drinking.
im sorry to make you go without drinking.sry ~.`

ii do enjoy myself being there with you.
and don't ever think or listen to others.
believe in yourself and believe in me will do.

27.05.2010

2010-05-27T20:34:00.003+08:00

well im bored as im still at work place but waiting for..
one forwarder to collect the cargo :))

hmm all ii can say about working life is..
GOOD when she's not around..but whole life is SILENT.
well even she were to be there in the office...
she will only be talking to her good lovely sister(yl)
ii really have no ideal why we will change till the way now.
ii wonders and ii wanna ask why.?but do ii stand a answer.?
will she ever tell me the truth.?or will she just act out.?
let's just put a FULL STOP to my working life alright.?!

Things that ii missed..
charlton birthday celebration was 22May.
ii didn't attend.ii don't know why..but not in the mood.
she might be my friend but once she's a boyfriend to me.
and someone who i loved before..for now..i HATE.
im still trying to get the answer out of me..but its never out.
i wanna know why she broke off with her girlfriend that time.
but well some people just tend to kept things to themselves :((
soo ii never get to know why and what's the real reason.
but now they are BACK :)) felt happy for them.LAST 4EVER :))

Things that ii wanna do..
ii haven been going to any movie lately..
im BROKE! seriously out of cash and card..
been waiting for pay but its still on processing :((
life this few days was boring for me.as ii have nothing to spend.
even my meals is "someone" who helping out..

ii really THANK n LOVE that person :))
not because he helped me in paying..
but well something as meant to be kept.
shhhhh~not saying out.hahahahaha :))

23.05

2010-05-23T02:37:00.000+08:00

weeee~~
my lovely boring blog is dusty again!

im just here to update most of the readers..
maybe none too :) well my life....
someone left me..
someone come to me..
but few still here to kick my ass...

ii don't wanna say anything about kicking my ass.
all ii wanna say is if your NOT happy COME to ME!
don't need to do all small actions and all those BITCH words!
you trying to make me get lost i know.but please!
SEE YOURSELF FIRST BEFORE SAYING ME!
YOUR NOT THAT PERFECT AND NO ONE DOES!
YOUR NOT A QUEEN TO ORDER ME HERE AND THERE!
SERIOUSLY I RATHER STAY OUTSIDE THAN BE INSIDE!
LOOKING AT YOU REALLY MAKE ME FEELS LIKE SLAPPING YOU!

whatever you said..its always been like a radio on itself and start singing.
ii never ever take your words seriously but it still pump through my heart.
and your everyday pouring bit by bit salt into my wound..
we used to be very good and close..but your the one who make things like this.
so don't ever dare blame me for my doings!and never dare you complain!
you wanna compare aso ii do the same with you ok.?don't regret!

i love my current life.with my friends around and someone else :))
they always make my day with a smile :)) so don't ever disturb me with my life!
if your not happy with me just FUCK OFF!

26.04.2010

2010-04-26T13:51:00.002+08:00

hello,

this few days have been sick like forever :((

6.04.2010

2010-04-06T20:26:00.002+08:00

im BACK to blogger :)
well although im still working now..
but ii keep find time for my posting!

last saturday ii went to pub and power house..
with....MIAOMIAO and her friend KELLY~
gosh the music that they played on Powerhouse..
is like...dotdotdot..don't understand..
but well ii have fun!thanks girls!

ii miss baby everyday!his having his duty tonight.
im thinking of him now..hahahahaha :)

28.03.2010

2010-03-28T12:51:00.002+08:00

my mood sux so much when ii wake up to see what you wrote.

i don't really understand you now.thought our friendship is good then others.

but im sorry im wrong.

all i wish to ask you is why.?
why was everything changing.?
when we are both alone we are always okie.
why whenever we in office with someone else..
you will change your attitude towards me.?!
was it my fault of changing attitude.?

i wish to know why!why is that so...

26.03.2010

2010-03-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

went working as per normal.
whenever im on my way to work hurtful feeling just appear.

- devil side of mine just come into me telling me turn home!
because devil says i will get hurt just turn over to home!
devil ask me to hide myself at home before my wound get deeper.

- angel side ask me to take this risk with her and go work!
angel ask me to face the fact the way im being treated.
ask me not to run from the fact that cant never be change.

end up, i stil went work because i believe im not a weak girl.
i want to do things in my way so im gonna ask why!
but when i saw her i already get F by her cos of my summary.
i kept silent.ii don't know why..im feeling so hurt inside..
but still smiling outside.im having so much stress but who knows.?

when we went somking i did voice out on the treatment im getting.
yet all you did is telling me by the way your treating me is a way of
pushing me work hard.but when i say it wont do any better..you laugh.
and when i ask you treat me better you say okie.and laugh again.!
we headed back to office both still talking.everything is okie okie de..
but now things is like this?!

was all the chat we have all fake?

24.03.10

2010-03-25T10:07:00.003+08:00

its been 4days ii last login to blogger.
seriously im busy with work.everything shipment is MANY.MANY!

22march.
Panda didn't come work so ii went alone.cabbed down to work place.
as its raining Stone n Paper. so ii took cab from pasir ris :)
well im bored today.feeling so down..ii wrote a emo line in facebook.
and who knows..jiejie read it and question me with it..
im not good in words nor good at face to face..sorry about that.
ii just keep wondering why im being there placed like a mute doll..
what im doing everyday is making me so boring..just wants to talk..
yet no one was there to talk with me :( im feeling down..
ii always ask you for a smoke you say don't want as your busy.
but next mins you can ask yeelee wanna smoke.?and your went off.
im waiting for my turn every since morning till evening..till you knock off.
ii didn't touch a stick on that day...ii knock off early too.

meet up with Baby, when the mins ii see him ii really wanna cry out.
on the way to meet him all my mind was thinking is why.?why this treatment?
what have gone wrong.?why im always the out-cast everywhere ii go to :(
it pull my whole confident,cheerful,smiling,laughing,kiddo character down.
ii need to recover and need to move on.i know im emotions.ii admit.
but emo was in my blood.this what i say to everyone.im serious.its in me.
there's no ways of changing me into someone who im not.so don't go over limits.
meet Baby went to buy food at the late-night market and headed off to his house.
Baby's going book in tonight.so im going home when he's going book in.

@ his house we both fall asleep.and when ii wake up..he's checking my phone.
well ii need some space of my own.and i need my friends.the way im treating them
might not beyond your limit but to me its normal. hope you understand.

23march.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANGELA :)
well some reason make our friendship goes till the end.
so we didn't really click anymore.and during this few years..
we didn't make any meet-ups.so ii guess we drifted far apart.
now we are like stranger.no longer friends or even hi-bye.
but ii still remember your birthday ii don't know why..
i still remember all outing we have in past.with our girls along.
remember going all the way till VIVO after school for our outing.
we went there have Ben N Jerry.that's the fun day we have.
always meet ups with laughter.leaving with hugges.
i don't know your can still remember or might forget but its with me till now..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

24march.
i went work with Panda.he fetch me and we went for breakfast.
eaten prata and drink ice milo.but who knows~its a waste only!
because when ii get back to work place..ii vomited everything out!
i don't know what's happening to my body and gastric.
every morning if i happened to eat anything ii will just vomit out :(
maybe my gastric is very very weak.im not sure.but after vomit..
ii feel better.Thank PeiWen she's there with me for the whole day.
asking me alright.?remind me to eat medicine.andandand the....
most TOUCHING part is..my old illness have a hit on me.!so i told her.
and know what.?SHE REMEMBER!she still remember my illness during..
our schooling life at C.H.I.J :) loves you deep ar!hahahahahaha :)

20.03.2010

2010-03-20T17:02:00.002+08:00

earth, yesterday night Baby come over to my place.
he but food for me but im still angry till he explain.
and this evening Baby have left me alone at home..
he have to go for driving with that aunty..
soo all ii can was wait for Panda to end work.
we are meeting as we going out for movie tonight.!
wooots~ don't mistaken he's my closest friend @ all times!
and tonight Baby wasn't coming over as he going friend's house.
so ii allow him to go with that group before he say im restricting.

sometimes ago ii text Clement my Only dude~
he's at india :) i miss him ever since the last meeting we had.
its been ages since we stop meeting because he's currently Attached.
ii have no words to say to him when he can leave me alone unlike past.
ii waited for our meeting for so long till ii text him and ask him..
when will we be meeting.?he reply asking me to believe him again.
and he have pass his license.so mostly will drive me out for someday.
ii wonder will that day ever come to me.?or was that another empty hope?
but somehow ii decided to give another chance to him.

hopefully Panda can meet me on time.we will be watching movie @ 11.50pm.
Alice In The Wonder Land.seriously this the first time im watching that show..
ii don't know was it nice or not.but friends comment its nice and funny.so try?
tomorrow Baby will be bringing me out for another movie!so happy!DATING!
Baby say wanna catch the show (How To Train Your Dragon 3D) wooots! :)

19.03.2010

2010-03-19T16:06:00.002+08:00

ii woke up with a hit on my tummy :(
im having my cramp for each month..
ii wasn't able to go work as it cramp lot.!

ii text both my JieJie.im not feeling well.
actually the day before Yeelee jiejei know..
she and my Godmama (ping) know my cramp.
both was scolding me somehow..telling me this..
you can't drink that you can't eat..as im having cramp.
im really happy in heart just that ii never show.
thank you both for giving so much concern to me.
i love you both!

............................................................

im alone in my loner world today.
im having a painful cramp..now the best part is...
Baby went Lanshop after army ends..
we somehow have some small fight.but ii think it DON'T WORTH MY FIGHT.
im sick down here yet you can happily inform me your going..
ii wonder to myself..was ii important or friends and Lan.?
ii question you..yet what you can only reply me was all the FAKE answer.

ii can always ask you to follow your heart and if you wants to Lan just go.
but you never even think im sick now!its not that im normal :(
thanks for the line that you just said,YOU NEED TO RELAX.
i just text back (up to you, im speechless.happy?)you never reply.
you can always say how much you miss me but now im free and alone..
yet you choose to let me be alone and went for Lan with the one you always see!
im really speechless.you told me after one round you will be going off..
yet its like 4already..all ii get was NO MESSAGE.NO CALLS from you!

during weekdays, your always going night-out with friends.
always going major with them.always eating and talking to them.
wasn't that enough.?or you want 24hours with them.?if that's the case...
im leaving.ii need a man.ii need a man who can give what ii want & asked for.
i need someone who knows what's on my mind and what i wish for now.
ii doubts you to be the man now..proof me NOTHING but im right.
you say im like restricting you..but did you think before you act.?
if ii did WENT working ii WONT BOTHER!but now im SICK!yet what you give?
nothing but disappointed me.that's all you can give.thank you.

18.03.2010

2010-03-18T18:32:00.002+08:00

God, may ii ask you something that ii wish to.?
i've been thinking this question ever since past few years.?
please just grant my wish and let me know your answer...

ii don't understand why you're the one who make human..
and your the one who take them back to your side.?!why!!!
your the one who want human to fall in love with each other...
but why still break them apart.?!I DON'T KNOW WHY!!

ii don't really get along well with my friends..but ii DO BOTHER!
ii DO CARE! ii know they will always say its nothing its over...
but ii still CONCERN of what happened or happening.??!!
some of my friends is facing all ups and downs with their guy.
why want them love each other so deeply then BREAK them apart?
don't they deserve each other.?or was that what ii called FATED?
why when ii grow up ii have to bear the pain of losing my family member?
why do ii have to grow up and see how my loves one lay in the coffin!?

when will everyone be happy with what they have.?
when will we human be long lasting with one another.?
....................................................

Baby,
you might be thinking the different way im thinking..
ii can understand your feeling.we are the weird couple!
we always don't have the same thinking and target right.?
hahahahaahahahah :) ii miss you for days.so is now...

17.03.2010

2010-03-17T20:27:00.001+08:00

Lover,
im very very sorry.
about what happened within us.
ii hope we can just let it be in there.
and never be drag out to spoil us.

ii don't know what happened to you and him.
but ii really hope nothing big alright.?

13.03.2010

2010-03-13T16:50:00.002+08:00

sorry that ii don't know you have such a attitude towards
our timing for MIDNIGHT MOVIE.if ii know there's NO MORE
NEXT TIME for us to get on a moive then.

ii never comment that much was like OH.you can happily
enjoy going midnight movie when your guy tell me you can't
go with us for late movie and now you went with friends.?
so means if ii want you to watch midnight movie with us..
I GOT TO BUY YOUR TICKET??!wont it feel more like FORCE!?

im so so speechless and disappointed with what you WROTE on.
thanks for all the shooting in blogs and not STRAIGHT TO MY FACE!
IF YOU HAVING ANY COMMENT PLEASE KINDLY SHOOT IT
RIGHT IN MY EYES AND SPEAK AT MY FACE!
RATHER THAN YOU KEEP SHOOT AT BLOG.oh forget ii don't have the right!
just shoot so much as you want.your FUCK UP with me.?izzit.?
please don't ever FUCK UP with me..LOL!you have the right to say what you want.
but do you remember what you said in the past few months.?
your guy said your not going last movie.so ii was trying to know why.?
but when you update your blog saying you went for late movie..how ii FEEL!?
NOTHING!?right.?then let it all be NOTHING WITHIN US!

treated you as a FUCKING CLOSE FRIEND.so what.?
small matters you can just say your FUCK UP?
then when ii message you its always a NOTHING! or OK!
what's wrong with that reply right.?hahahahas !
in this FUCKING WORLD ONLY ME WAS WRONG ALWAYS!
NO OTHER PEOPLE WAS WRONG LIKE ME! FUCK IT!

13.03.2010

2010-03-13T10:28:00.002+08:00

hello..goodmorning everyone~
its early now..should be my OFF DAY..
but im BACK in office this Morning :)
somehow ii started to enjoy my work.

but baby ii know when im enjoying your suffering.
because im always working working & WORKING~
totally have lesser and lesser time for you now :(
im sorry.but all ii wish is hurry finish everything on hand.
baby please bear with me now alright.?

yesterday while im sleeping..ii dream of something so random!
ii dream till my closest friend(Clement) at work with me :)
we have alot of fun..but suddenly my....PHONE RING!!!!
woke up from the nice & fun dream..answer and realize....AGNES!
my jiejie called in the middle of the night man!!!didn't tell her...I'M SLEEPING!
hahahahahahas :) scare if ii do she won't be telling me what she wants to.
talk to her till 1plus ii think..after ending the call ii doze off fast!!!

*****
[ii wish to ask everyone in this earth...
if your a guy will you allow your girl to go club with her friends.?
included guys and girls too :) please give some comment...]

im asking this was because ii just wish to know.
baby don't allow..but maybe because of the place im in..
ii wish to join friends when they went clubbing or pub :)
ii felt that ii have change.change to go for friends more..
but baby believe me ii love you like the past i do~HUGS!

11.03.2010

2010-03-11T21:44:00.003+08:00

baby,
its our 1year 6months anniversary.
i have known you for 1years plus more than our dating moments.
i know your everything.but ii can never say i'm really 100% (liao jie).
we still get some big or small quarrels..but i believe after each quarrel..
we tend to know each other more well and we get to learn more things.

i know whenever im having mood swing your the first to get it from me!
seriously baby i'm very very sorry all the silly mistakes and shit ii gave.
ii know myself well.ii know most of the times im getting over your limits.
ii also know sometimes you really really wanted to shout "STOP" to everything.
including our relationship..im sorry to make you go through all my Rubbish!
sometimes girls just can't get their emotions done well..baby i'm sorry :(

our relationship was once on the rocky side..we nearly ended off.
but im very happy and glad you gave me the second chance back.
i swear to treasure it.i will treasure everything im having and holding now.
thank you for all this while baby.

HAPPY 1YEAR 6MONTHS ANNIVERSARY.
your seriously the best ii ever have before :)
i need you in my whole life for this life time~

baby i love you just like how we started knowing each other in maple story :)
im writing as im working.ii just don't want to miss the timing for you~

So sorry baby knowing its our anniversary but we can't be meeting.
ii miss you badly.but whenever im busy working my time pass so fast:)
its a good thing that its passing fast, because ii don't have to wait for weekend~
this coming saturday i might be working :( ii know its a badbad news for you.
but ii still have things on hand and got to rush myself for that.SORRY BABY!

im going off and ending this post here.
goodnight.

26.02.2010

2010-02-26T20:11:00.002+08:00

hello everyone :) :) :)
im still at office. doing filing again!
but im on here talking to everyone who viewing my blog.

well tonight going over Baby's house :)
we have been missing one another for days!
everyday seems so short to me..but i loves days passing fast!

25.02.2010

2010-02-25T18:56:00.003+08:00

hello everyone who's still viewing my lil rusty blog :(

im back to blogger but well sorry couldn't be able to update.

my reason is WORKING! ii everyday working OT :(

somehow its me who want it too~ clearing all ii can!

well new year is somehow over too isn't it.?

to me..its a boring new year this year :(

ii don't really enjoy but what ii love the most was~~

BABY WAS THERE WITH ME ALL ALONG :)

that's make me feel happy and mostly LOVED!

ii guess Baby is not really happy with the timing ii left office.

ii always went home after 10pm.sometimes its 12am..

what ii believe is Baby should have know me well than others.

if ii started doing something ii will do finish everything before leave.

im still using my office computer now :)

was doing filing all the long..getting bored but NO CHOICE!

i've a good new (TONIGHT IM GOING MOVIE)

its so surprising my Anges's jiejie will ask me along for movie~

Thank you :)

Baby im looking forward for tomorrow :)

hopfully tomorrow ii could get less things as its MONTH END!

its always busy for our company :( im always dying over it.

but hopping ii can get to hug Baby after my long day @work :)

been missing him ever since the day he went back camp.

althought he's having night-out everyday, i just can't see him.

he's way too far from my side.and im way too near home :(

ii know he have been wanting to see me for long but im sorry.

all ii can do was give you all my time during weekends :)

i LOVED you...

28.02.2010

2010-02-18T00:14:00.002+08:00

love Babyian :)

taken all photos while at town's toilet :)

well went there shopping and watch movie.

14.02.10

2010-02-14T00:34:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & VALENTINE'S DAY

its the second year im having this days with Baby.
its been so hard for our relationship.but well we're still strong.
after so much ups and downs my love grow more for you!
i know you always planned the best for me.Thank you Baby.

tomorrow everyone gonna wear new clothes.shoes.take new bag.
so is me!hahahahahas~im looking forward for meeting Baby!
today he went home early as Daddy send him home because we going..
grandmother's house too..for REUNION DINNER!

Baby do wake up early to accompany mii tomorrow!

10.02.10

2010-02-10T22:28:00.002+08:00

hello earth~

im still working at office now!

seriously im missing BabyIan..but everything wasn't smooth!

dear god just bring us to where we never start quarrel can you?

im trying my best to maintant so please never never stop me!

BabyIan,

all ii wanna tell you was I LOVE YOU.

ii know im always throwing temper and attitude on you.

but seriously ii really do feel bad after doing that to you.

ii know ii don't have the right and don't have the permission.

im sorry.really sorry.ii say sorry to you in there okie.?

please believe me..im madly in love with you...

06.01.10

2010-02-06T09:23:00.002+08:00

READERS IM VERY SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING MY BLOGGER.
WELL IM ALWAYS WORKING [OT] @ WORK.

IM.....
BUSY..BUSY..BUSY..STILL BUSY!!

HAVEN EVEN WENT SHOPPING FOR NEW YEAR CLOTHES!
GONNA GO DOWN FAR EAST FOR A HUNT :)
WELL 2DAYS AGO SOMETHING MADE ME DOWN..
BUT NOW....

I STILL LOVE HER.SHE'S MY TEACHER IN WORK!
ANYWAY SOMETHING HAPPENED YESTERDAY TOO..
ALL II COULD SAY IS...I'M SORRY.

WELL THANKS HERMAN.HE WAS THERE TO ACCOMPANY ME!

23.01.10

2010-01-23T09:33:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STEF.(Lover's Sister)

today was your 21st birthday.! you wrote on your phone.

today was your big day!but sadly you didn't wait for this!

ii didn't blame you for leaving nor your family.but....

since today was the biggest day..come to their dreams!

they need you!let them see you once again! do it tonight!!

knowing you have went into a new world with yourself.

i bet your grand grandparents will be taking care of you.

ii hope you could just teach your sister and brother what they can do..

soo that your parents wont be crying over your death.

ii know you want them good and living happily.

somehow ii can only tell you its totally impossible.

to parents.no matter they dote you or not..they will remember you.

no matter how old you grow to parents you never grow, stil their child.

that's why they will can never accept the fact your gone..

and ii know for your sister my Lover..she's crying everynight.

ii know her feeling.always sleep with you on same bed.

suddenly your not going home forever..she will miss you.

ii guess all your friends miss you too.when your still here..

you are always cheerful and pretty.althought ii never see you before.

but ii have heard things about you from your sister :)

everyone loves you more than you know..so you have to live good there.!

not for yourself but for us! ii know you can do it for sure.just R.I.P there~

16.01.10

2010-01-16T17:28:00.003+08:00

Yesterday Baby fetched me after work..HAPPY :)
he came all the way down from Town.!!
because he went to Town with his army friends..
he come Tampines and we going Town for MOVIE!
hahahahahas~soo happy!Dating day again :)
ii will be going home after mid-night movie!yeah!!

we watched DayBreaker well ii find it not bad.
but Baby say still alright only~hahahahas :)
after watching its already 2.30AM.
..home sweet home..

11.01.10

2010-01-11T23:45:00.001+08:00

!!HAPPY 1YEAR 4MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!!

Baby ii know we have been together long.
but ii can tell you this seriously from my heart~
ii never will ever get enough of you!
ii will always want you soo much even its just awhile!
ii miss you whenever your a step away from me :(
ii think of you whenever your not with me :(
Baby my mind and heart was all about you,you & YOU!

Baby ii hope we could last till the day your promise appear!
im waiting for that day to come~

Baby actually fall sleep already plus he fall sick..
soo ii agreed to let him rest in camp..
ii bear my tears and emotions to agree with him.
but who knows..he woke up 9pm plus..rushed over!
ii receive his call and he told me he's here~
ii love him tons!he's soo good to me!always!!!

09.01.10

2010-01-09T01:10:00.001+08:00

YEAH~ii love today!today was our first day together..

first time saying we like each other.

am ii right Ah Dear?hahahahas~bleahx!

well this two days was all the while with Ah Dear :)

he booked out on 08.01.10 im so happy to see him!

well im loving him everyday and loving him have became..

PART OF MY LIFE!hahahahahas~ im missing him on days!

every weekdays im working so hard.doing OT too~

Message to Ah Dear when he was standing beside me :

well what you wanna see now.?ii know im typing my blog..

but can you just GO AWAY?at least let me finish first.?

hahahahahahahahas~he WALKED AWAY!

today ii have to work half day as my shift was ON.

so early morning Daddy fetch me to work as im LATE!

hahahahahahas~ THANKS DADDY!ILOVEYOU :)

ii worked OT for 30mins!hahahahas~extra pay too~

after work ii straight go meet Ah Dear at Tampines :)

we will be going Town straight after our lunch.

walked over to Tampines Mall for prata lunch!woo~NICE!

we went shopping and went moive :)watched *HEAR ME*

its nice..althought in the front there's not much talking..

all hand sign.but its a love story :) nearly cry...can watch!

~GREAT THANKS TO AH DEAR~

Ah Dear just buy a Guess wallet for me :)

LOVES!ii really like that wallet he buy for me..

im going use it everyday!and every minute im holding it!

Ah Dear whatever you buy and gift im in love with them!

well we buy our couple ring too~ double happy!

goodnight :)

07.01.2010

2010-01-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

I'm here to say sorry to my Baby :)
ii mistaken him for cropping our photo in his face-book.
Baby im so sorry.please forgive me for that alright.?
please don't be angry with me for mistaken you f or that.
ii really don't know that photo wasn't cropped by you.
Baby ah dear say big sorry to you.

this few days nothing really happened..soo didn't update.
plus this few days im everyday working.and Baby was in camp.
miss him also can't go down and meet him..sad :(
Baby told me one of his camp-friend going Genting with his girl on Feb.
ii wish to go too :( but when Baby asked me..ii said nah.
actually im hopping and wishing to go again with you..but cost?!
ii think ii will give it a pass.wanna go other sea place with you!
Baby i'm missing our Genting days~ its great memory with you there!

Tomorrow Baby's coming to fetch me after my work..
soo mostly im going knock off my work on time!
yeah~hahahahas!Baby next week we go wildwildwet what.?hahahas~
ii forget tell you ii have the ticket for Free Administration for 2person!

03.01.10

2010-01-03T23:00:00.002+08:00

Lover ii hope your fine today.ii know your might be alone.
ii hope you didn't cry yourself to sleep.im always here :(

Today Baby went back to camp le~
he today have Guard Com.so no choice have to go..
ii yesterday went over his house then something happened to..
his psp!hahahahas~Baby don't worry or stress ok.?
we go repair when your free or when this weekend hao mah?
we will get your psp back safe and sound can.?smiles ok~

don't know why ii start to feel im like Baby's ex girlfriend..
because he once told me before..last time when he's ex went over..
his parents will always stay in room and talk very less to her..
now im like her!!when his parents came back only say hi then ROOM!
im all alone siting there waiting for Baby to finish his things on computer.
ii wonder is his parents starting to ignore and dislike me..
ii wish to know the answer now!it affect me most!

01.01.10

2010-01-01T05:13:00.001+08:00

i think many people have seen and read the News Paper already.
this two girls have met a accident after CountDown @3am plus.
one of the girl was my Lover's JieJie!!can you understand the pain?!
my lover have just lose her good sister!and the another girl was in ICU.
Lover's JieJie turning 21 soon on this coming 23jan.but why can't she hold on?
she wrote on her phone that day was her big day!you know its sad?!

ii can understand the lost of your close family members.but when its time..
no matter how you try to save it can never be back.

did went down to her "Songka" on the first day.when ii know this news..
ii really feel a hit from heart!ii don't know why..ii wish to rush down.
but ii know ii can't.ii don't even know her sister.just very worry of Lover.
ii went down with Jie & Baby..ii saw my Lover!wish to hug her~
but ii know she's very busy talking to other people there.so ii hope she's ok.

When Lover talk to me this ii really feel her loss and pain!
need someone there to make her stronger..that's Xiwei!her love!
ii hope she will get well soon :( maybe because me and her was VERY CLOSE!
ii really can feel her pain and all her feelings!a very big rock just hit her face!
and that rock just make her eyes filled with tears and sadness!
however the rock will be staying there with her till the earth ends off~
ii know this was the hardest time for her.and school's reopening.
ii really hope she could really cheer up and pack up all emotions & be STRONG!
ii know its hard.ii know by saying was easy..but girl II BELIEVE YOU CAN!

if you do read my blog this post was meant for you :)
ii hope you can remember this I'M ALWAYS THERE BY YOUR SIDE!
everyone might say hi and leave you..but NOT me.Jie & xiwei!
WE LOVE YOU

31.12.09

2010-01-01T05:08:00.004+08:00

COUNTDOWN DAY~
LET'S SAY GOODBYE TO YEAR 2009!
LET'S WELCOME THE YEAR 2010!
well the number 2010 was soo nice!but ii love 2011~
because 11.09.08 was the day ii belong to Baby.
wanna get marry @ the year of 2011.11.11 (year.month.date)
nice numbering right.?Baby will you want this date too.?
Baby will you think its a nice day for marry too.?answer me!

So fast Baby and me know for 1year plus~
so fast Baby and me have been through so much!
just like a blink we will be going into year 2010~
but my love will never change.ii guess yours too :)

Baby wasn't here with me..soo ii went down chalet..
ii headed over straight after my work knock off.
ii meeting JieJie there~MeiMei & Daddy there already!
Mummy didn't go as she have to work..soo ONLY US!

When ii reach there..ii saw Martel soo ask them to pour me 1.
who knows they pour ALCOHOL ONLY for me..!
ii drink le nearly FALL ASLEEP STRAIGHT!hahahahas~
ii just keep playing and talking with JieJie..MeiMei went off early.
soo only left two Big Kids there~that's ME & JIE!hahahas :)

SURPRISE!Baby called me say HAPPY NEW YEAR!
but who knows!the channel 8 live show haven even reach 12AM!
yet Baby already said Happy New Year!hahahahahas~
ii talk to him while watching channel 8 live..then ii countdown with him..
sadly was through the phone :( ii miss his absent!i want him :(
stayed over at chalet..but who knows ii fall asleep when Baby go wash face!
hahahahahas~he say me for falling asleep wors!cos no pei him!!!
im soo sorry my Baby.hope your alright when the time im sleeping.

All the Jokes & Laughter we had during Chalet.

31.12.09

2010-01-01T01:08:00.005+08:00

Babyboy, this post is meant for you.SURPRISE?

ii know your in camp now doing your guardcom..

guess you know ii miss you badly too :( hope soo..

guess you know ii need you here with me too :(

guess you know how much ii want you with me..

iimissingyoutons!i'malsolovingyoutoo!muackxx :)

Ah Dear your the first guy ii fall for after 4years..

your the only guy who ii have been so in love with.

your the only guy ii really want to marry to :)

your the only guy who ii really can give up everything for you.

Ah Dear ii love you ONLY!ii wish this year we can MARRY!

You PROMISED me by this August you will be getting..

our marry ring and you will do your proposal after 09.08.10!

hope that day of mine will be coming soon..hope not lies!

ii will be looking forward to that day of mine :) hugs!!

ii will be meeting you tomorrow..ii will be staying at chalet :)

will ton the night with my dearest Jie & jokefull Daddy!

hope tomorrow weather allow us this two lovely bird for tanning!

ii wanna go sun tanning again~ii wanna go with Ah Dear ONLY :)

tomorrow ii will be going DATING! movie here ii come~hahahas!!

Ah Dear we MUST enjoy ourself tomorrow alright?MUST be happy!

we MUST always love each other alot alot ok? :) Loves You~

30.12.09

2009-12-30T19:24:00.003+08:00

1MORE DAY TOWARDS COUNTDOWN~~
HANDS CLAPPING FOR THE WORLD!
EVERYONE GROWING OLDER 1YEAR LE :)
soo fast and soo soon we will be waving goodbye to 2009 :(
well let all the bad things that happened in this year go!
and let the happy moment & loving moment of Boyfriend & me..
stay till the end of my LIFE then...hahahahas~

well Ah Dear is cooking my dinner..as he's at my house ever since...
Last Thursday 24.12.09 till Tomorrow 31.12.09.
he have to go home after ii go work tomorrow..as.............................
he have the SHIT GUARD COM!FUCK HIS DUTY PLANNER!
why put my Ah Dear on tomorrow!!cant it be like other day?! CB!!
soo Ah Dear WONT be celebrating countdown with me tomorrow :(
seriously im damn sad about it..somehow have a lil fight with him too..
but what can ii do.?he say he have to face that friend who's standby for him..
for 1year then say later scare go back see him will quarrel..
very sad so what.?who cares about my feeling?only ii can SHUT UP.
only ii can SHUT UP and LET HIM GO..my feelings is always shatted away!
Ah Dear just hurt my feelings when we are quarreling..he said hurtful words!
ii could only hide my reaction off his side.
ii wish to know WHO on EARTH can UNDERSTAND my FEELING!

This year is the second year countdown for Ah Dear & me :)
Last year ii have countdown at Vivo with Ah Dear & Jie & Jie's friends too.
its a memorable Countdown for Ah Dear and me..soo much laughter!
soo much jokes and love during that Countdown..
but this year..?
IT'S ONLY ME ALL ALONE.....

Hope tomorrow i'll be having fun with Lover.Xiwei.Jie :)
if not ii will be the only one crying for my Ah Dear's arms..
but guess even if ii cry till eyes drop also can't get to see him!
soo..ii think can only get DRUNK DRUNK DRUNK!!!
without Ah Dear all mood for Countdown was GONE :(
ii need him every where ii go..ii miss him whenever he's not there!

ii will update tomorrow again about what happen tomorrow :)

27.12.09

2009-12-27T03:51:00.000+08:00

Today went too...SENTOSA with Ah Dear.Lover.Xiwei~
we soo happy when we get there..but no sun :(
there's soon gonna be rain coming :(soo sian & sad~
but well with Ah Dear is there with me..soo im happy!!
although this not my first time going tanning with him...
but the feeling was always like the first time :) Loves~

After tanning we going off to Bugis and after eating we headed home :)
ii love today!its a great day for everyone!!

uploading photos is super laggy!soo not going upload.

19.12.09

2009-12-19T01:43:00.001+08:00

Yeah!Boyfriend FINALLY fetched me from work~
he booked out @ 12pm.Boyfriend still have to wait for me..
im knocking off @12.30pm :( hope he won't get angry..
its raining heavily wors!!but he don't mind standing in rain while..
he have to wait for bus towards bedok..he don't mind changing bus.
im soo happy to have him..coming over straight after his book out :)

After ii ended my work..ii hurried walk towards that bus-stop..
ii saw him siting there all along :( wanna hurry hug him..
but ii saw his face..not giving a good reaction when he see me.
soo ii think ii should just back off my thinking then..see how he talk.
well..his mood not that good..so is mine..because we can't plan..
we don't know should we or not to cab home from my work place.
at first say going take bus..but end up...we get up cab :(

Headed home.Boyfriend went bathing..SURPRISE!!
both parents at HOME~weee!but im going out later on.
im meeting my Lover & Xiwei too!yeah!
going out with Lover . Xiwei . Boyfriend & ME!!!
double up my happiness for my day le~

Boyfriend and me was LATE AGAIN!im so sorry my Lover~
Baby and me fall asleep when we both talking..soo wake up late.
well actually meeting both of them @6.30pm for movie!
but end up they reach le go check movie tickets...DON'T HAVE SEATS!
soo down lo..end up..all "AVATAR" over 11pm!we will be watching @12.35am!
many people watching too~cool that we can get the couple seats!
while we waiting for movie timing..we walk down to Wisma..wanna go Topshop.
but well by the time we reach all CLOSED!soo just walk around..
sit down chat..Boyfriend & Xiwei have soo much to talk about so do Lover & me :)

Walked back Cathay :) soo happy today!
its been long ever since ii last meet Lover & Xiwei :)
its been long ever since Boyfriend come along!
movie started just nice the time we get back there~
sit down on our seats..holding Boyfriend hand..we watched the movie!

well all ii could say about the movie was.....

"AVATAR" WAS THE BEST MOVIE OF DECEMBER!
rated 10/10!!!!clapping hands for them!~

we shared cab home :) Boyfriend and me went over Plaza..
both abit hungry or more towards mouth itchy :)hahahahahas~
we went to transfer Baby's friend money and head off for MAC!
buy double cheese burger home :)Loves~

Goodnight..im tired so is Baby!
gonna hug him to sleep~

~I LOVE THIS GROUP~

!MY LOVER!

BABY & BROTHER

COUPLE THAT I LOVE

COUPLE THAT I LOVE

18.12.09

2009-12-19T00:45:00.002+08:00

Well today went to work too..
but who knows im late by 5mins!but its alright for this company!
boss will never say or cut your pay~soo ii like it!
hmmm im doing filing again :) its nice doing it..easy and kill time!

During lunch time ii went out to eat with them :)
went over to Airport for Popeyes.!wooots!
well its my first time eating that wor..always wanna try with Dear..
but well always missed the chance with him..sooo..
ii eat it with friends from office :)yeah~~chat & chat!!!
after eating headed to NTUC as one of the girl wanna buy Red Wine!
wow!many people say StoneCross is nice wors..should try :)

work ended at 9pm as im doing OT for night!
walked out to bus-stop with Yen Cheong :)a guy friend~
he's good man!always so gentle man de!a good friend too!!
well ii waited for the bus damn long can!like 15 - 20mins!!
so tired yet have to wait that stupid bus :(
hmmm headed off to Bedok then change bus :)
reached home closely to 11pm !
im used to it traveling by myself..to work and go out.

Boyfriend promised me to fetch me from work tomorrow ~
so happy!im looking forward to see him straight after end work!
im missing him every single day man!always hope he can come home!
well this few days was always quarrelling over small things..
ii don't know why..but Boyfriend told me the reason.
and he FINALLY felt that insecure of mine!FINALLY!!!
Boyfriend also promised to get me a normal ring..

and
i'll
name
it
as

.JUST WITHIN YOU & ME.
it belong only to us :)

tomorrow im wishing to watch that nice movie~
" AVATAR "
Boyfriend and ii have been waiting for long!
might be meeting my lover too~
i miss her tons!so long never see her le!~

17.12.09

2009-12-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

well today took a leave...there's something on :)
after doing everything ii headed home :)
well its nice to have a day off from work...
but im down with score throat :( hate having it!!

anyway..few days ago..went to *Ion*..
ii fall for this Puma's shoe!!Boyfriend Buy for me wor!
thanks him tons tons!it cost him $119 :)thanks!
ii know its expensive that's why ii keep say nevermind!
but well he insist.soo when ii get my pay..im going..
BUY ONE FOR YOU TOO:)

this few days of working..im everything filing.filing & filing!
they have alot of documents to clear away!
hopefully tomorrow when ii get back ii can start learning things!
but somehow ii like to do filing too~easy and free timing!
well everyday lunch was out with girls!they are fun..but silent!
well will talk to you girls more :)make friends with me!!

im turning in soon..just downloaded some songs again :)
now Ipod have more and more songs :)mostly ii downloaded was English!
tomorrow sit bus wont be that bored with old songs !yeah~

16.12.09

2009-12-16T00:59:00.001+08:00

Sorry readers ii know ii haven been blogging.
this few days im very busy at work :(
well first day of my work was 10.12.2009!!
this date have been my lucky date since 4years ago!
hahahahahas :) well people there started to talk!
yeah!im not bored anymore!got people talk to me le~

wee~Boyfriend buy Itouch for himself so ii get to use..
that new Ipod of his!hmm ii was planning to get one.
thought he will get me one as mine was spoiled.but never!
haix~wonder why was he that selfish!humpf!hate you!!
but everyday going work ii listen to Ipod..
because its not mine so scare of spoiling it lo~haix!

well Boyfriend this morning went back Driving Center!
we were both late for our works.hahahahas :)
end up lucky got my Lovely Daddy!!he drive us to our work place!
first is Boyfriend's Driving Camp.then mine work place :)
before going work ii ask Daddy go eat Breakfast!
woots!its the first time having breakfast with Daddy only!!
feeling was great!ii love my Daddy!he's the best~!!
After ii get in my work place Daddy then drive off!soo happy!!

My work end off at 9pm..ii stay over for OT!
well not meeting Boyfriend so just kill time at there :)
hmm tomorrow wont be going work..because im going for Appointment!
soo mostly just take a day to rest then :)im tired everyday early!
body soon can't take it le :( this morning was having bad flu!
but with no worries im back to normal!recovered!hahahahas~~

im going off to bed soon!miss my bed for the whole day already!

09.12.09

2009-12-09T03:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

Well Baby said starting from today till 11.12 is all anniversary!
but well our actual anniversary we set it on 11.09.08
three different numbers..three kind of emotions..hahahas~
there's love.happy & sad too...

i believe in every relationship there's this three emotions..
no matter how good or how bad was the relationship is.
i can openly tell you my relationship have that three emotions.
but well the rate of those emotions was...
100xxxxxxxxxx% of Loves
100000000% of Happiness
0.000000001% of sadness

im not lying or bluffing anyone who's reading my blog.
together with Baby we really very less will quarrel.
even when we do its always some serious matters within us.
soo after that serious matter have some solving ideal..
everything will be back to HAPPY lah~hahahahas~loves!
Baby is the first guy ii love this much!

Tonight Baby going book out too.he self declare :)
others got to book in for tomorrow marching.
Baby too tired to care of anything so just sleep first!
we at my house now..later going back to his house.
because he didn't bring his uniform along with him..

Reached Woodlands we went there looking for some mum mum!
both abit hungry le..two hungry kiddo!hahahahas :)
well after buying headed off to take bus at interchange!
hmm we both carrying bags..look like we just go tanning!
but actually we went no where~hahahas!

Reached his house and we watch movie while eating :)
woots!that movie was not bad wors..its about game and in the game..
got a GHOST!!everyone who played and die in game will die in life too!
well im going sleep le :)

08.12.09

2009-12-08T03:37:00.001+08:00

Im Missing You...

Morning went home myself and now im going to SLEEP!
so tired..nearly fall asleep on bus..but scare miss my stop..
soo ii didn't sleep.keep message with Baby :)miss him!

I wake up and clean the house :)
waiting for Baby to finish his things..
he will be booking out tonight this evening :)
soo happy can get to see him again!wooots!!!

Baby come over my place to stay over :)
he tomorrow morning still have to book in KBC.
when others can happily enjoy themselves with one day off!
soo fuck up camp can!grr!ii hate Baby at army life!!
but no choice my Baby is 101% GUY!so must train his body!

well im going off to sleep le :)

07.12.09

2009-12-07T03:26:00.001+08:00

.See that I Love You.

Wake Boyfriend up early in the MORNING!!
Boyfriend mood always not good on morning..don't know why.
but lucky im a good girlfriend ii think..that's why never angry.
Boyfriend realize yourself how lucky you are.?
hahahahahahahas!don't want say too much if not he say ii thick skin.

Well ii went home after that..sleep till afternoon.
ii receive a call from Baby..he say he have half day off!
soo well can book out NOW!wooots!soo happy!jump off my bed!
wake up and wash my face..then ii jiu hurry go clean house.
after doing everything ii went bathing then off ii go~

Actually ii went over Boyfriend house without telling him anything.
only keep quarrel with him.make him feel that im not going.
but who knows ii go over he was shock to see me standing there :)
my SURPRISE passed!weee~soo happy!ii miss you tons!
tonight staying over at Boyfriend's house.soo text me if your looking for me :)

[My Surprise Just For You]
Baby are you happy about your girl's surprise?
hope you enjoy and happy when you receive!

06.12.09

2009-12-06T17:16:00.006+08:00

Good Morning everyone~
ii wake up with Boyfriend beside me :) Loves!
im so happy to see him beside me..well this morning Ah Boy Keep disturb him.
ii keep wake up and help him push away Ah Boy.
if ii don't keep Ah Boy away he will disturb my Baby till he wake up!
soo ii must be the hero!SAVE MY BABY!hahahahahas!

Boyfriend wake up and help me cook Half Boiled Egg.
but well..the result was same with mine!FAILED!
ii don't really know why..my parents both can cook it!
have to learn more and do more :) give me sometimes!
hahahahahahas :) ii will get it right soon!believe me!

We were eating the egg and watching the ending of [The Prefect Getaway]

wooots!its nice!you never know the killer till the end you know!
the movie not bad.Rated 8/10 :)
but ii never go Cineplexes watch because ii have the Vcd.
Jie's boyfriend buy kinda lot.still got some haven watch yet..hahas!
soon going watch it with Boyfriend..see when he free then watch :)

Boyfriend went to his friend's birthday.he going with Rong.
ii wanted to join in too..but haiz~his friends all ii don't know de!
then can only stay home!haiz!im so sian at home :(
miss him tons when he leave but who knows..ii didn't say anything.
but lucky Boyfriend know my feeling.even when ii didn't say wors!
well soo what he know.?he didn't do anything after knowing!
we planning to meet after he finish that party.
but don't know he what time ending plus ii scare no bus to his house :(

When he leave my house..somehow we quarrel a little.
mostly was pressure!the stress we having when we tgt..
but well everything solve with a good ending.
both side know what each other wants.and both side putting effort.

05.12.09

2009-12-05T04:01:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday to Boyfriend's Father :)

well actually today don't know was his Father's birthday.
till we reach his house..then his Mother say about the present they buy.
so ii remember was his Father birthday was December.
his parents order pizza for dinner :) wooots!nice :) since we haven eat.
eaten pizza then they say cutting cake so that people who going out can go.
soo after pizza straight eat cake :) its mango cake!wooots!!hahahas~
well after we eat Boyfriend Mother ask wanna drink Red Wine?!
ii didn't drink because its nice my type :( plus ii don't drink it anyway.
after Boyfriend finish his Red Wine he went to change and off we GO!

[Pictures Moments]

The Birthday Boy...

The lovely Parents...

Headed to *Town* for our movie night!wooots!ii love watching movie!
well we watched Ninja Assassin :) well rated 7/10.

the reason was easy because its too bloody for me..
but ii enjoy the movie..just because your with me there.

Sorry to Pris and Lover. Sorry for rejecting you for meeting.
because ii was cleaning my whole house for my mum.
ii know ii can't make it for meeting your.and well..sorry..
ii love accompanying Boyfriend :)

[Do you ever Treasure me?]
do you ever scare of losing me?
do you ever fight to be with me?
do you ever treasure me in life?

05.12.09

2009-12-05T00:35:00.000+08:00

Baby Loving you Already Become My Life.

Good Afternoon :) well im here to do a quick blogging.
because today going busy with house-works and later going out.

well Lover just called.she ask me wanna meet up with her & Pris.
their meeting is around 4pm in the evening :) At *Bugis*
but all leaving around 7pm after dinner :( ii wonder should ii.?
will give her the answer after asking Boyfriend.

Actually ii planned to go *Town* there's a new shopping mall..
and ii wanna go there see Ipod :) plus wanna go watch movie too.
if ii meet up with them Boyfriend and me still can go down *Town*.
but ii scare he don't wanna go out with so many girls..wahahahahahas!
soo well got to ask him and let your know later alright.?

later ii have lot of house-works to do..will be tiring day for me..
[]Sweep the whole house.
[]Pack the whole house.
[]Mop the whole hosue.
[]Bath BabyBoy.
[]Fold clothes for all.
ii guess after doing all this ii got to bath myself clean clean!then can go out!

have to leave now..if not later can't finish
CAN'T GO OUT!

Boyfriend now coming over with his army clothes on :)
Handsome guy coming over :)hahahahahas~
well ii got to go le.will update new things tonight or tomorrow :)

Thanks Peiwen she early in the morning text me..!
congrats me about getting back with GuoQing :)
well im happy to get back with him too..because he's the most suitable for me!
don't need to worry anymore..im not going let him go anymore!
wish you have a never ending love with Devil too :)

04.12.09

2009-12-04T01:02:00.001+08:00

Baby I MISS YOU~

stayed home for the whole day!
message Boyfriend for the whole day!
missing him for the whole day!
loving him for the whole life!

well he book out evening..!coming over to find me :)
thanks Boyfriend!ii know you miss me!
well he's now sleeping on my bed!hope he don't over.
well actually planned to go over his place.tml he still need to book in.
soo its nearer and no need wake up that early too..
but who knows...he fall asleep le :( never really talk to him too!!

guess he's really that tired ba.army life really suffering!

well its a good new that my "Joker Boy-friend" found a girlfriend!
wooots!congrts him!and know what?this coming weekend she's coming over.!
ii mean going over to his house..hopping to get a look at her.
hmm she better don't bully my "Joker Boy-friend"! if not...
I WANT HER DEAD!

[Will you feel down?]
when your best friend have a girl..
will you feel down.?
like your being thrown away?
ii feel that way..why.

03.12.09

2009-12-03T05:11:00.000+08:00

Baby I LOVE YOU~

Well morning ii have been trying so hard to wake..
my lil piggy up!!he's just like a dead log you know!!no matter how
ii wake him..all he do was say hmmm...then sleep back le!!
ii was like waiting and waiting for him to wake up!he have to book in!
yet!waited and waited..by the time he wake up was 7am le wors!
sooo guess what.?HAPPY DAY HAPPEN WITH A HAPPY THING!

Boyfriend went to get M.C :) its a very good news for me wors!
thanks~but actually this M.C wasn't taken because of me..but because he can't wake up!
sooo ii shouldn't be this happy actually right.?but well..he can accompany me!
im more happy than anything that happened le~went *Chua Chu Kang Poly Clinc*
after 1long hour of waiting..finally can get out of there!headed off to *Lot 1*.

When we waiting for his turn to see doctor we planned to watch movie :)
went to have our lunch and headed up to buy movie ticket!
woots!weekdays..it only cost $16 for two seats!soo cheap wors!
guess which movie ii watched.?
NEW MOON!its the movie ii watched.!
well its my first time watching movie at Chua Chu Kang wors!
realize that area de people all like to watch movie alone...

well today alot of young kids wondering around that shopping mall!!
when the show ends we walk out of the room..there's alot of youngest group!
ii ask Boyfriend if ii were to stand with them in their groups of friends..
will you think that im the same age with them too.?
Boyfriend answer : YES!because im wearing jumper!look more kiddo!
ii bite him after getting his answer~hahahahahahas!sorry :( pain.?

hmmm we headed back his house :) around night time headed back my house.
ii thought my mum got cook something for me..and ii have to finish it today!
soo rushed home..but who knows!!mum didn't cook :( rest awhile then went back..

going sleep with Boyfriend le..he's tired so am i :)

[Am i really that KIDDO?]
if im really that kiddo,
i will only kiddo you.
if im a kiddo girl you know,
i will only be yours kiddo.

02.12.09

2009-12-02T14:17:00.005+08:00

If you were to die now..
you know ii will die too.

Boyfriend says ..he's booking out tonight at evening time~
and he's going to meet me when he book out :) happy!
i will be going over to his place as ii wanna watch my show!!
eps5 is OUT!at his computer le..waiting for eps6 now!!

but well my Boyfriend failed his test again!please allow me..
FUCK THAT TESTER!HEY WHY EVERY TIME FAIL MY DEAR!
YOU SEE HIM WHERE NOT HAPPY!?SEE HIM WHERE NOT GOOD!?
NOT HAPPY COME FIND ME TROUBLE DON'T WASTE MY DEAR'S
LOVELY TIME!BECAUSE HE GOT TO ACCOMPANY ME!
WE HAVE TO PLAN FOR HOLIDAYS!SO PLEASE JUST GO AWAY!
GIVE MY AH DEAR PASS YOU GOT PROBLEM IZZIT.?IF HE PASS YOU..
GOT NO PAY TO TAKE IZZIT.!?IF NOT WHY CAN'T YOU JUST PASS HIM!?
Next Wednesday Ah Dear going have another re-test so better PASS HIM!

Well ii yesterday view many people on face-book :)
know what ii found out a girl who love Charlton for 4years..have married.
and surprise that she have a baby already~well think is shortgun..
but ii can feel that she's happy with her life now.wish her happiness :)
saw her baby's photos through ultra sound..it make me think of my..
ii miss him..hope he's doing better than when he's with me.
ii know ii can't give him anything in future..so that might be the good choice.

I read Lover's blogger.and ii get to know Pris's carrying a babyboy!
wah~first child babyboy le wors~hahahahahas :) so envy her now~
hope she get over her past and move on with her happy life now!
well if you need someone there ii can always be the one you know?~
hahahahahahas~ii wanna visit you when your baby is born ok?!
ii know that birth day of yours was April 26 right.?
call me when you know your ward alright.?ii wanna see babyboy!

[I miss You]
BabyBoy ii miss you so much!
will you miss me too..?
missing you being part of my life!

01.12.09

2009-12-01T16:07:00.003+08:00

.Its A New Life With A New Month.

Well guess everyone waiting for 25.12.2009 to reach right.?
not surprise im one of them too~hopping it can hurry come~
its been another year with Boyfriend.another count down.
never realize how time really flows..but it did flow fast.

Boyfriend and me did have some bad and hurtful things happened between.
but well after that shit and fuck 3months..we get back on rack together.
now im more loving him.more treasuring him.and more missing him!
sorry in the past the way ii treated you.recalling them ii hate myself too!
ii know how important you are to me now.and i know how much i love you.
i swear to god above...
IM NOT GOING TO MAKE SAME MISTAKE!
IM NOT GOING TO HURT YOU ANYMORE!
IM NOT GOING TO LET YOU GO OR LEAVE ME!
I WANT TO LIVE WITH YOU FOR THIS WHOLE LIFE!
I WANT TO LOVE YOU TILL THE WORLD ENDS!

I'm sorry sometimes im really feeling so insecure.ii don't know why.
ii know its wrong to feel that way because your here with me already.
but ii can't help but feeling that way.that's why ii hope to get something..
just for the both of us.just something that belong to us ONLY!
and something that represent YOU and ME..that's why ii will wish to get
the donuts for us.ii know you will think its a waste and we don't really need.
but ii was hopping to get at least some secure when ii see you wearing or using.
im sorry.ii know its soo stupid and soo silly..but ii just don't want to feel
soo insecure by you and your words..im so scare to lose you again.i want you!
hope you understand my feeling and my thinking...
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For this Christmas..ii hope Santa will grant my wish this year.
*i
wish
for
a
ever
lasting
relationship
with
Li GuoQing*

[This Christmas]
Will it be our last Christmas together?
Will we hold hands and walk further?

30.11.09

2009-11-30T03:18:00.001+08:00

Early morning wake up accompany Boyfriend go bus-stop,
but ended up is he accompany me wait for 187 :)
Thanks Boyfriend!i miss you tons after ii get on board!
well ii left myself with my Psp player only..music player SPOILED!

listen to songs when im on bus..messaging with Boyfriend.
well he asked me to sleep first..but ii guess its hard..
because im without him.his arms.and mostly his hand to hold.
feel so alone.so lonely without you.ii guess im ADDICTED to you!
please come back fast this week!because im waiting for you..

Reached home jiu went to room and lie on bed..
ii wake up at 6am!soo tired now!sleepy too~miss him tons!
wake up around noon..messaging with Boyfriend again!!
well ii guess ii really really wish to become yours now!love you too deep.!

but somehow im so scare to lose you..because you haven go out work.
still serving army..if one day you went out working..meet someone else..
will ii be the one to let go.?or will that someone be the one to leave.?
Boyfriend ii really wish to know how much you love me now..
during past your answer will always be..love you most and willing to marry you.
but im not sure of your answers now..ii feel insecure now..WHY!?

[Will You Be The One]
will our love lasting till the end?
will our names be on the lists of ROM?
will you love me till the world ends.?

29.11.09

2009-11-29T02:25:00.001+08:00

wooots!ii love Boyfriend!today he not booking in~
weee~going watch our favorite show!
well we didn't really went any place only walkwalk..

Yesterday his grandparents went home le..
don't know what's the reason for them to go off so fast.

well today we have the room to us!thanks Brother~
hmmm don't know why ii started crying when Boyfriend's sleeping.
ii don't know why ii suddenly feel like marrying to him..
hahahahahas~stupid and silly ideal of mine right.?ii know that :(
well sometimes ii wonder will me and him really get marry in future?
Boyfriend what you think.?what's your answer for me.?

seeing pris so happy with her family now..im happy for her too.
envy her and mao too..wonder can me and you be like them.?
own family.own wedding.own baby..?
Boyfriend what's your answer for me now.?can we?

[Is happiness really a path for me?]
i want my happiness to be you..
but will your happiness be me.?

28.11.09

2009-11-28T13:23:00.002+08:00

hello everyone..im going out soon.~
meeting my lovely Boyfriend soon.im missing him.!
well we will be going over *chua chu kang* for some walkwalk.
its my ideal to go there and check out that mall~hahahas!
well somehow ii guess mother will be angry with me.
because im going out this few days..ii guess mother will scold.
but promise to come home soon not later than mid-night alright.?

im going bring comic to read while im on the way there to boyfriend's house.
hope his grandparents will treat me like past.because i like them!

27.11.09

2009-11-27T01:07:00.001+08:00

Went down to *hougang mall* with Boyfriend.
we went there to find his ipod casing :)
well the whole thing cost around 50 dollars.inside got screen protector.
i saw MiaoHua..working there.soo surprise to see her.

well after that we headed home straight..
tonight Boyfriend got to book in.soo come home eat lunch..
then head over to his place le..

Reached his house.he quickly add more songs to his ipod.
because the last time there's only 70+ songs only~
well after adding..Boyfriend cooked maggie for me~my Favorite mee!
he always know what's best for me..hahahahhas~loves!
after eating Boyfriend changed shirt to the army one le..NOT NICE!
because its the new uniform!i loves the old one on you not the new one!
didn't get my chance to take photo of him..will do it on sunday!

his grandparents suddenly come over to his house :(
well ii don't feel good..due to some personal things that happened.
ii don't wish to talk about it here..only "Joker Boy-friend" know~
after he done everything we headed over to *woodlands*.
Boyfriend make spoiled my music player..soo he will get me some comics!
hahahahahahahas~thank you alot my dear!loves!muackx!

after buying Boyfriend send me go take bus..
then he meeting his friend at the bus-stop where his bus is.
i miss him as ii let go his hand..ii don't bear!ii want him more!

26.11.09

2009-11-26T13:37:00.001+08:00

im waiting for Boyfriend to book out..
he's coming back home this evening...
wanna fetch him there but was being reject.
well ii know he care for me but just wish to see you early.
hmmm ii later go over his house awhile then come home.

hurry come back to my side..
im missing you badly.!

24.11.09 - 25.11.09

2009-11-24T12:32:00.001+08:00

24.11.09 - 25.11.09

I'M BACK HOME!!home sweet home now~~
well ii missed home when im at there.night can't sleep.
keep turn and turn.listen and watch movie on Boyfriend's ipod.
well Boyfriend did visit me on 24.11 the first day im there.
and "Joker Boy-friend" come down too~loves all his jokes and chats.
parents was there all along till mom went home @ 7pm plus.

ii was sleeping there alone.because Boyfriend can't stay.
i miss everyone at home..mostly Jie and Dad~both of them were the one..
who ii can find when ii can't sleep during midnights..but during the night..
in there..ii can only hug my pillow and cry..medicine was inserted.
im feeling the pain all along when the first pill went in..all ii could was wait..

during midnight around 1am ii went to toilet..ii saw something coming..
soo ii hurry called.and it was out @ 1.10am.everything clear @ 3am.
injection given to me was PAINFUL.my hand was with needle and tube~
my hand even bleed and the bag of water have my blood flowing in..
they press the water back to my needle into my hand..it really hurts badly!
but ii can only bear with it.well ii called Jie to chat till 5am plus ii think..
around that timing ii knock off..sleepy already..but can only sleep for 1hour!
because ii will be pushed in OP @6am.everything ended @ 7.30am..
when they ask me wake up for breakfast..after that ii knock off again~~

by the time ii wake up again was lunch time..my head stil feel heavy.
guess the "Ma Jiu Yao" haven gone yet..so tired too..
eaten abit of lunch then wait for parents to come fetch me home..
well..what ii could say was everything is still so clear staying in my mind!
im going turn in.too tired to even watch tv show...

g
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n
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23.11.09

2009-11-23T00:20:00.001+08:00

FINALLY 100DAYS OVER!

well ii wake up early today because its 100days already!
we going up to *lim chu kang* to pray grandfather.
headed to grandmother's house first then daddy drive up.
at the moment ii open my eyes its only 7.30am!!EARLY!

reached grandmother's house around 8am plus ii guess..
feeling soo weak!run to vomit..who knows its all my gastric juice!
well totally not feeling well but still have to go pray..
feel soo weak cant really stand that well when we are praying.
everything ended at 11.30am!fucking early too~thought its noon!
well went back to grandmother's house when everything over.
once we reached ii headed straight to sleep..but who know im on sofa!
grandmother ask me go her room to sleep on bed.so mom.jie & me go.

around evening then ii wake up.eaten lunch then message Boyfriend.
well ii miss him tons you know~hahahahahahahas :)
Boyfriend tml going book out in evening time..soo mostly he will be coming.
tml have to wake up damn early too~because by 7.30am ii have to reach!
soo
im
going
to
sleep
now..

im way too tired le~

21.11.09

2009-11-21T13:09:00.002+08:00

Well today was soo randomly ii suddenly feel soo down.
like my whole mood went up to the highest then drop to the lowest.
ii guess only me who know this feeling ba..right Boyfriend?
ii think my mood was being affected by him.
because actually he told me we are meeting.might be going out.
but well last time everything was cancel :( im speechless.
ii know for my character ii wont force him out to meet me.
but well ii somehow miss him tons.but guess its just only my feeling.
ii think he wont even feel the way im feeling now..guess he don't even know.

why my that "Joker Boy-friend" have to be in camp!
hate his camp!if not at least he will accompany me today!
that stupid sir of his!ask him go back do duty!stupid camp!!

well my Lover's Boyfriend going oversea for camp too.
bet my Lover will be missing and worrying for him everyday!
but well Lover me and jie will be there when your lonely~
we can always meet you anytime and anywhere!miss you tons!
as for Xiwei do take care when your there alright.?must come back safely!

sorry ii don't really have any mood or feeling to update anything else..
ii wonder will Boyfriend change his mind and ask me to meet him later..
to me that % is very very less..maybe its only 0.1% / 100%.
goodbye.today wont have anything for update :(

20.11.09

2009-11-20T02:24:00.000+08:00

Dearest Boyfriend iloveyou...

Do you know that your message stabbed through my heart.?
Do you know how much effort i'm really putting in this time round?
Do you know i'm willing to do everything for you and only for you?
But why do you have to say things so ugly.?
why do you have to hurt me so painful.?

ii really don't bear to say "End" this word.you should know too.
ii really don't bear to "Let Go" guess you could feel it too.
ii really don't bear to do this two things was because im truly in love with you.
ii hope you know.and ii hope you can feel it too.

ii miss you badly now..ii really do.but ii guess your not..

18.11.09

2009-11-18T03:40:00.001+08:00

Boyfriend told me something ii somehow get so sad with..
he said he mostly can't be there on 24.11.09 with me.
at first he told me he will find many ways just to be there..
but now everything sound so empty..like everything was fake.
i really hate this feeling.it make me feel like im all alone!
now can only pray hard you can get a leave on that day alright.?
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"Joker Boy-Friend" suddenly told me something weird.
but im sad about it too :( he suddenly just ask me don't get that close with him.
because he was too scare to fall in love with me like our past.
but when he say that im feeling sad you know.?ii don't want to lose a closest friend!
and by now your the only one who's most close to me!
your the only one who know my everything!so do i know yours.
please stop saying your leaving or going get a gap within us alright.?

17.11.09

2009-11-17T02:37:00.001+08:00

Later going plaza for my dinner with Daddy and Jie :)
soo happy!its been soo long since we went out for dinner!

im missing Boyfriend!sorry that we didn't get to talk on phone.
maybe ii wish to be alone...

16.11.09

2009-11-16T01:18:00.000+08:00

you know how much im hating a fucker?
a guy who made all this shit to me and now.?
ii have to clean his fucking mess!thanks for his stupid ideal!
when we together he wanted to marry me badly.
but he never think of my own thinking and ideal!
only know what to do can make me tied to him always!
this kind of mind and thinking can give me happiness.?
now thanks to you!ii have to kill the little "B" i have!
please go fucking clear your mind and thinking!

message you asked you to pay the fee for the course.
you didn't even FUCKING REPLY!what kind of guy are you!
a guy have everything he want and run away.!?
YOUR A FUCK-UP GUY I EVER KNOW!

14.11.09

2009-11-14T15:57:00.004+08:00

*GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE*

ii didn't put in any hope because ii know the result will be the same.
your are all one family.soo ii know the answer will be the same with yours.
but ii don't know why my heart feel soo painful now..im so down.
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Waited for Boyfriend to book out :) he going home first then rest also..
Boyfriend book out @12pm.he went home first and told me he's tired wanna rest.
soo ii let him go sleep first then late evening then meet him at *Town*.
ii called him at 6pm plus then he wake up sia!hai~damn late!soo hurry go out.
well ii reached *Plaza Sing* first soo waited Boyfriend at the bus stop he get down.
well we headed to eat what im craving for!LONG JOHN SLIVER!wooots~hahahas :)
Boyfriend know im craving for their fries soo he added extra fries for me~yeah!
after eating we headed into Plaza Sing..we tonight going watch at GV :)hahahahahas.

We watched [Paranormal Activity].
well its sad for the ending but kinda scary too~

13.11.09

2009-11-13T15:26:00.001+08:00

CAN I FUCKING DO THIS?

Everyday im using my tears to wash my face.
Everynight im crying to sleep just like taking sleeping pills.
im really really getting soo down and getting soo tired of stress.
"B" im sorry ii really can't help to keep you with me.sorry.

been waiting for "Joker Boy-friend" to book out!
its been whole day and night!its 9pm plus then he reached home!
well waited for him to get ready and call me..who knows!
he's waiting for my call and im waiting for his call!hahahahahas~
end up ii called him and ask him what time going out wors?
then he say NOW!hahahahahahahas~ii rush down to meet him..
know what.?! we both don't even know where we are going!yet we come out!
hahahahahahas~hmmm can say im used to it le ba.if everything planned..
not my "Joker Boy-friend" le!hahahahahas~

End up planned to go *Town*.By the time we meet its just nice 12AM!!
we went to take bus 163 towards *Compass Point* then "Joker Boy-friend"
went to top-up his ez-link.after that we took cab down.buy our movie ticket..
watching (2012) at 3.50am!fucking early right the timing!hahahahahas!
ended our movie at 6.30am!ii see the sun you know!people go work we going home!
hmmm we both planned to go take train!hahahahahas~reached *Compass Point*..
at 7am plus!wooots~we going home by bus :) goodnight im going sleep le.!

11.11.09

2009-11-11T01:10:00.000+08:00

ii went to KK Hospital for my check up..
the result was what im hopping to see. "H" is healthy and normal~
well im happy to see "H" in there.soo small yet soo cute..
im falling in love with "H" that photo.the nurse gave it to me.

but the truth is "H" don't even know he's going to die on 24.11.09.
on that day he will be out and forever leaving me...
soo what "H" is healthy.?so what "H" is normal.?no one wants him.
im sorry.there's too much i have to go through..im tired.stressed.depressed!

no one knows the feeling of killing it even when you have the chance..
to let him live.no one knows how it feels when you see him yet..he have to die!

im everyday crying..everyday thinking.
im getting depression ii guess...

05.11.09

2009-11-05T16:29:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS SONG...FOR "B"

It's a shame that it had to be this way

It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm to blame

Or maybe were the same

But either way I can't breathe

Either way I can't breathe

All I had to say is goodbye

Were better off this way

I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive

Cause everything were been through

And everything about you

Seemed to be a lie

A guiltless twisted lie

It made me learn to hate you

Or hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye

Were better off this way

All I had to say is goodbye

Were better off this way

And every, everything isn't only

What it seemed so hold these

Words that you never told me

Its time to say goodbye

Its time to say goodbye Goodbye

Take my hand away

Spell it out

Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away

Spell it out

Tell me I was wrong

Take my hand away

Spell it out

Tell me I was wrong

04.11.09

2009-11-04T01:07:00.006+08:00

IM SOO SORRY.I WISH YOU CAN LOVE ME..

my appointment have changed date and time as ii can't make it on 23.11

ii booked my appointment on 10/12/2009. @1.30pm.

im sorry to Only Boyfriend and Joker Boy-friend.ii know both of you really..

care and concern about me and my life.but please at least let me have my wish.

please don't stop me from doing it hao mah.?if what im asking for was too much..

im here to say sorry to you both.if ii can't make it through the "A" im sorry.

im willingly to take my life and risk this time.ii guess its worthy ba.just to fulfill my wish.

To : Only Boyfriend

if ii can't make it out of that op room please take good care of yourself.

believe that im just beside you alright.?believe that im still there for you.

ii will be there when you call out for me.but ii wish to see you moving on with life.

don't because of me give up your whole forest alright.?i know you will.

believe me this last time..i love you deeply.im sorry for our past.ii don't mean it.

ii miss holding your long hands.

ii miss hugging your fitfit body.

ii miss talking to you.

ii miss kissing your lips.

ii miss biting your hand.

ii miss seeing your smile.

ii miss hearing your voice.

ii miss your everything like past..

03.11.09

2009-11-03T01:06:00.000+08:00

WHY IS EVERYONE GOING FOR THAT FASTER WAY?

ii know the longer ii drag will be more and more risky for my life.

but no one knows all ii want was to have a photo of it soo that ii could keep.

no one knows how much im hopping for it.ii don't ask for permission to "B"

but at least let me have a chance to get something that ii can keep for it.

ii know you scare my life will be on the risk.but ii believe ii wont die that early.

ii know the longer im dragging the more it will be going.ii know what your want.

but who can fucking understand my real feeling!the real thing im begging for!?

im not asking to keep it.all im asking for was a chance to see it.that's all.

ii don't need to keep it..because ii have lot of reason for not keeping.

i wants to go back schooling life.and get my cert.
i want a better future for myself and you.
if your out i don't know what i can give you..
i love my life now.im happy with everything now too.

ii don't want any change to it.so friends and parents please give me a chance.

ii get what ii want ii will give it up can..?

PLEASE STOP FORCING ME TO CHOOSE OR THINK ANYMORE!

MY BODY CAN'T TAKE THE STRESS ANYMORE...

02.11.09

2009-11-02T01:04:00.002+08:00

IM MISSING YOU SOO BADLY!

ii wish your just here with me.accompany me throughout my day!
ii wish you wasn't in army when ii know you first..ii wish your all mine!
ii hope to know you while your in your school life :( but its hard to turn back.
soo can only wait till you end your army life and we can have a wonderful life!
ii will be looking forward to 2010 year :) soo that ii could go dinner with you!
and we could wear nicenice to that party!wooots!

just hope weekend could hurry arrive!don't wanna keep counting down days!
want you hurry come to my side!well my "Joker Boy-friend" fall sick le :(
he got himself food poisoning!aiyo!please take care of yourself while in camp ok?
hmmm actually im still kinda worry for him because he was vomiting and running toilet.
hope he will drink lot and lot of water alright.?see you this coming weekend if you can.

im going off to watch tv le.im missing my guy!who knows he's sleeping le.
but nevermind sleep tight then.and sleep well alright.?goodnight!!

01.11.09

2009-11-01T01:03:00.005+08:00

NOT FEELING WELL AGAIN AND AGAIN!
why was it always me who's not feeling well!?why!?
i wish to have a better health!but can i?NO i guess~

"Lucky Boy-friend" went home around 4.30pm plus~thanks!
love your company you know that for sure right?muackx!
well ii know you don't bear to let me be alone and wait for whole week.
but what can we do.?we can only wait and can only count down..
see you next week then.i will miss you tons~bet you will miss me too!

im going off to rest!feel soo xinku you know :(
vomited and keep running toilet :(what's happening!HELP!

31.10.09

2009-10-31T01:02:00.003+08:00

LOVE IS WITH ME NOW~

HAPPY HALLOWEEN DAY~~
well ii meet "Joker Boy-friend" headed to *Far East*.
he wanna make his belt there.after that we hunt for dinner!
eaten with him and talk with him there!fun lah~hahahahahas!
hmmm around 10pm we headed down to *City Hall*.
"Joker Boy-friend" meeting his friends there..ii go there wait for "Lucky Boy-friend!
im meeting him.before meet him, he go WeiTing's birthday~

"Lucky Boy-friend" fetch me at there then headed to Cathay!
we planned to watch movie tonight!hahahahas~watching Jennifer's Body!
well its not that bloody but its abit boring too!not scary too!Yawn!!
headed off to *Rivervale Plaza* for breakfast then headed home with him~
im going sleep le~goodnight!

30.10.09

2009-10-30T01:01:00.002+08:00

Tonight meeting "Joker Boy-friend".Jie will be tagging along with us.
we will be going *ION*.we meet each other at house downstairs.
headed to town around 8pm ii think..we went to *Plaza Sing* go in Carrefour.
we went to buy kinda lot of food and snacks home..but end up we headed..
to cathay!watched Poker King!hmm kinda boring!go home at 4am plus!

im going sleep le.goodnight.!i enjoyed myself!

29.10.09

2009-10-29T00:58:00.002+08:00

My sickness is heal.but flu come :(
went fishing with Daddy again..well jie tagged along too.
but we didn't catch anything tonight!wind was soo strong!
headed to fetch mummy again~today we are late!hahahahas!
well im going sleep not feeling well..goodnight!

28.10.09

2009-10-28T00:52:00.002+08:00

Till today haven recover my vomit sickness :(
keep running toilet again and again!but lucky today vomit less.
hai..Daddy buy chicken rice yet i eat le 5mins jiu go vomit le :(
i keep rest myself then eat some..feel fucking xinku!

ii go rest first le.take care :(

27.10.09

2009-10-27T00:46:00.003+08:00

Today i really not feeling well at all~no matter what ii eaten down..
it will be rejected by tummy and ii will keep vomit everything out.
feel soo xinku yet no one here with me :( im vomiting soo badly!
haix.vomit around 5times..keep running toilet.!even i eat maggie after 5mins i vomit!

haix.ii going turn in le..very xinku le~

26.10.09

2009-10-26T03:41:00.002+08:00

IT BETTER TO SAY EVERYTHING THAN DIDN'T...

well what i wish to say here was only one thing to Pang.
i wish and i want him to forget me from now and always.this the best way.
i don't want you to remember as i have my own thinking and answer to it.
if you don't want or can't do it i wont force..just hope you can and could.
sometimes its better to forget than remembering it...

Went to fishing with Daddy and Jie :)wooots!headed to *Punggol End*.
well its kinda less people there.but you know what there's a stupid couple!
keep hugging here and there.!please people went there mostly was for fishing!
if you both don't mind can always do a free show there too!wahahahahas!
but please lah!wanna hug go home hug till you enough not at public lah!been hugging for 1hr!
hmmm well Daddy started to make the fishing rope all that.and he swing it out to sea!
well keep talking to Jie and didn't really help Daddy with anything yet.hahahahas :)
well ii started to ask Daddy's help for another fishing rope..ii was lousy on swinging it out.!
but it was fun!hahahahahahas~when i was swinging it out Jie say im like going to throw..
the whole thing down to sea!that's what she see and think on her view of me.
while fishing my phone didn't stop ringing.hahahahahas!was messaging my two Boy-friend!
well but you should know who ii reply most :) hmmm Daddy's prawn keep kanna eaten.
but mine was still there and NO FISH along~waited and waited.failed and failed.finally!!!
here comes my stupid un-eat-table fish!look like a stone fish.Daddy says its poison fish!
did take some of its photo down..but well it look kinda ugly.hahahahahahas~
around 10pm we packed everything and headed off to *Punggol Plaza* to fetch Mummy~
hmmm on the way home ii told Dad ii wanna eat supper!and Daddy headed to *401* :)
buy finish supper we headed back home sweet home~~called Boy-friend.

Now both Boy-friend went sleeping :)soo im alone now in my lonely world~hahahahas!
well ii hope Boy-friend feeling can grow fast for her.and can get her what you listed.
goodnight~sweet dreams~

That Poison Fish!

While waiting for Mummy!

25.10.09

2009-10-25T03:51:00.000+08:00

i wish to sleep like her!fall asleep till next morning light!
Yesterday ii TOTALLY CANT SLEEP!even when ii fall asleep its only few mins.
after that mins ii will be awake!ii don't understand why!!soo tired yet can't rest!
im getting nuts by now!during today noon ii can only sleep for 2hours then awake le!

Can anyone tell me what's happening to me!
why can't i just rest like normally.?why changed?
feel soo uncomfortable!ii need help!sleeping pills please!

SOO sad both Boy-friend have booked in to camp already!no company le~
have to wait to next friday & saturday!sooo sad..waiting again!

24/10/09

2009-10-24T05:06:00.000+08:00

This all the movie ii have been watching for this 2weeks..

Watched with "Joker Boy-friend" @home.
Rated 8/10

Watched with "Joker Boy-friend" @ Cathay
Rated 4/10

Watched with "Lucky Boy-friend" @ Cathay
Rated 7/10

Watched with "Lucky Boy-friend" @Cathay
Rated 6/10

Watched with Daddy @ home!hahahahas :)
Rated 9/10