Im getting speechless to life.to living.to being alive.
everyday waking up doing the same old thing i always do.
watching the channels i always use to watch.
eating the food.snacks i always.sometimes eat..
my life is getting soo boring.yet ii still can't go out to work.
how ii wish my life wasn't having any changes.wasn't having any move.
i wish to turn back the clock and choose to stop going work @ST.
ii guess by then everything wont be happening.three person wont be hurt.
This few days talking to Guoqing on phone..we always start to quarrel..
its mostly on the same issues we always did.ii think we both stressed out!
Guoqing said something most hurtful to me yesterday night and today..
he really didn't give me any contact till i text him.and he suddenly called.
i admit im happy that he called.but end up when i talk to him on phone i cry badly.
im confused.im stressed.im lost like a girl lost her way home :(
the feeling.thinking and what im going through now no one can understand!
To:Guoqing...
i know what you hopping from me.i know what you wish from me.
but i guess its gonna be the most hard things i will ever do for you.
i hope you understand me too.i wants you accompany me on 23.11.09!
i hope you can see my check up too.and then make your decision :)
To:Clement...
Thanks for being there!your always there even everyone walked off.
i know you will always stand by me.but remember when you got a girl..
you have to put me first too!hahahahahahas :) i love you bro/sub :)
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