My life is getting worst to worst~
seriously ii don't know why and what's happening to it.
just feel soo lost everyday.every morning i woke up and everynight before i sleep.
ii just feel im the world most lost girl.like im always alone in my own world.
no one was here with me..even when friends did stay by my side messaging me..
ii just feel soo alone and like no one really understand what im doing..thinking.hoping.
Mum talk to me about "H" asking me how i want things to be now.?
all ii can answer was ii wanna go back in schooling life.start a new.
but seriously ii really don't bear to get rid of "H" :( im scare of taking it away.
i just felt soo heartless when mum say its no choice de :( my heart felt a deep stab!
ii can't explain why to my feeling..its totally hurtful when i know ii can't do anything to help it.
im very very sorry to it.i wish to keep on going with it.but its impossible :( sorry.
ii know Dad wants it soo much.ii know it and ii can feel it..but ii know its hard to have it.
im soo sorry Pang. & Daddy.
everyday waking up im scare to hurt Daddy..every night before sleeping ii think of Pang.
thinking how much ii have hurt him..thinking how badly he was doing now..im sorry.
everyday ii wish to say sorry to him but ii know what he will say to me was nevermind..
he will always say its not my fault.its his silly thinking and movement all that.im sorry.
i hope you did read this post i wrote.because when i write till this part tears flow..
ii have to admit i have a very very soft heart.im sorry.but ii know sorry wont solve your pain.
ii wont ask for your forgiveness..but i hope you can stop blaming yourself alright.?
hope everyday your happy with your life without me.i hope nothing is going happen to you.
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