Saturday, October 31, 2009
LOVE IS WITH ME NOW~
HAPPY HALLOWEEN DAY~~
well ii meet "Joker Boy-friend" headed to *Far East*.
he wanna make his belt there.after that we hunt for dinner!
eaten with him and talk with him there!fun lah~hahahahahas!
hmmm around 10pm we headed down to *City Hall*.
"Joker Boy-friend" meeting his friends there..ii go there wait for "Lucky Boy-friend!
im meeting him.before meet him, he go WeiTing's birthday~
"Lucky Boy-friend" fetch me at there then headed to Cathay!
we planned to watch movie tonight!hahahahas~watching Jennifer's Body!
well its not that bloody but its abit boring too!not scary too!Yawn!!
headed off to *Rivervale Plaza* for breakfast then headed home with him~
im going sleep le~goodnight!
Labels: Love is with me and you~
what we could have been, 1:02 AM.
Tonight meeting "Joker Boy-friend".Jie will be tagging along with us.
we will be going *ION*.we meet each other at house downstairs.
headed to town around 8pm ii think..we went to *Plaza Sing* go in Carrefour.
we went to buy kinda lot of food and snacks home..but end up we headed..
to cathay!watched Poker King!hmm kinda boring!go home at 4am plus!
im going sleep le.goodnight.!i enjoyed myself!
Labels: shopping and moive~
what we could have been, 1:01 AM.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
My sickness is heal.but flu come :(
went fishing with Daddy again..well jie tagged along too.
but we didn't catch anything tonight!wind was soo strong!
headed to fetch mummy again~today we are late!hahahahas!
well im going sleep not feeling well..goodnight!
Labels: Went fishing~
what we could have been, 12:58 AM.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Till today haven recover my vomit sickness :(
keep running toilet again and again!but lucky today vomit less.
hai..Daddy buy chicken rice yet i eat le 5mins jiu go vomit le :(
i keep rest myself then eat some..feel fucking xinku!
ii go rest first le.take care :(
Labels: i feel fucking xinku~
what we could have been, 12:52 AM.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Today i really not feeling well at all~no matter what ii eaten down..
it will be rejected by tummy and ii will keep vomit everything out.
feel soo xinku yet no one here with me :( im vomiting soo badly!
haix.vomit around 5times..keep running toilet.!even i eat maggie after 5mins i vomit!
haix.ii going turn in le..very xinku le~
Labels: soo sick~
what we could have been, 12:46 AM.
i wish to sleep like her!fall asleep till next morning light!
Yesterday ii TOTALLY CANT SLEEP!even when ii fall asleep its only few mins.
after that mins ii will be awake!ii don't understand why!!soo tired yet can't rest!
im getting nuts by now!during today noon ii can only sleep for 2hours then awake le!
Can anyone tell me what's happening to me!
why can't i just rest like normally.?why changed?
feel soo uncomfortable!ii need help!sleeping pills please!
SOO sad both Boy-friend have booked in to camp already!no company le~
have to wait to next friday & saturday!sooo sad..waiting again!
Labels: I CAN'T FUCKING SLEEP....
what we could have been, 3:51 AM.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
This all the movie ii have been watching for this 2weeks..
Watched with "Joker Boy-friend" @home.
Rated 8/10
Watched with "Joker Boy-friend" @ Cathay
Rated 4/10
Watched with "Lucky Boy-friend" @ Cathay
Rated 7/10
Watched with "Lucky Boy-friend" @Cathay
Rated 6/10
Watched with Daddy @ home!hahahahas :)
Rated 9/10
Labels: movies~
what we could have been, 5:06 AM.
This morning "Joker Boy-friend" went to book in for something.
soo we can't go sentosa early can only wait till he come back :(
he book out @ around afternoon timing.soo about evening we went there.
then we went to siloso beach for some shooting.but first we go down to sea.!
play water and talk in the sea!hahahahahas :) we both have nice time..
then we went up to bags there for camera! take some sunset shoots..and waves.
well we played till late evening then went to bath :)
we leave that place and slack at somewhere that have a nice view!
soo colourful and the lights colours will change too!nice nice!
we went to take bus towards habourfront interchange.the tram was very long.
sooo took bus back to interchange.its already 9pm in the night le~
"Joker Boy-friend" going shawn's girlfriend's birthday party @ pasir ris park.
and i going meet "Lucky Boy-friend" at habourfront interchange.
Reached le.i and "Lucky Boy-friend" send "Joker Boy-friend" to MRT there.
then we went up to find "Lucky Boy-friend"s army friend.
we meeting him & his girlfriend.
we are going for movie tonight!buying ticket @ *Vivo*
but we going plaza sing for movie :)
after that army guy's girlfriend end work we headed off to *Plaza Sing* for movie.
got down the train and head over to *Giraffe Bar* for some finger food & beer.
good view!
but kinda hot there :( hahahahahas!after eating went across the road for movie le~
we catching HALLOWEEN 2 that movie :)
its very very bloody!and know what.!?this guy he have a great strength!
just one step of his leg or just a punch of his hand your face will be smashed!
i will rate this movie @ 7/10 :) CLAPS!!!
After movie "LuckyBoy-friend" & me went over to *Hongkong Cafe*.
"Lucky Boy-friend"s army friend went back with his girlfriend first!
so we went ourselves.
eaten mee there & drink Milk Tea jiu went down to take cab home :)
im going off to sleep le~night!
Labels: sentosa and movie day~
what we could have been, 4:33 AM.
ToNight meet "Joker Boy-friend" he borrow the exex camera from friend.
soo we are going out to take some nice night scene :)hahahahahahahas!
but when ii wanna go out who knows my old illness attack!haix~im painful.
told "Joker Boy-friend" i need some rest before ii go out..just a few mins.
Around 9pm plus ii went out to meet him.he ride bike and bring me around.
he ride me to the park there.and we took some photos there.FUN!~hahahahas!
then ii feel like eating supper soo ask him wanna go *Jalan Kayu*? for supper.?
he ride the bike there with me siting behind.hahahahahas!ride on road side..
reached buy our soya milk and leave there.ride back all the way to sengkang...
went to *7-Eleven* there the void-deck for supper time!while eating took photos too.
Have a fun night riding with him.Enjoyed tonight.Thanks "Joker Boy-friend"!
went home @ 3am in the middle of night~
Labels: enjoytable night shooting...
what we could have been, 4:55 AM.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
i really fall in love with this photo when i first saw it!
it have my message to everyone out there :(
but no one can read this message or even they read..
no one understand what's the truth in this message of mine.
just like "When you read it you thought you understand but true fact you don't."
well tomorrow im going out to meet my "Joker Boy-friend"!hahahahas!
he's going lent his friend camera and we will be going places to place for shoots :)
well im sure going take lot of night scene for my blog.all the EMO places i loved!
hmmm but we wont be out for too late as my this "Joker Boy-friend" have to go back..
camp on saturday morning i guess.hahahahas :) its a stupid book in..
im looking forward to our meeting!nice and EMO scenes here i come!!!
damn that both early PIGs!Guoqing fall asleep while talking to me!
and that Clement die more worst!message till half way he disappear!
ii guess by now they are both sleeping soundly le ba :) right?both PIG!
hmmm i hope Guoqing will be passing his test tomorrow.then saturday can book out early!
To: Pang.
i saw your face-book.i get to know you quit your current job.
although i wish to know the reason for you quitting it but i guess i know.
all i wanted to tell you was be careful while your going or doing your night-life job.
i guess your going back to the non-thinking you ba.i wont stop.i wont care.
but i wish you all the best in life, in family, in friends and in love.take good care.
Labels: nights~
what we could have been, 2:19 AM.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Im getting speechless to life.to living.to being alive.
everyday waking up doing the same old thing i always do.
watching the channels i always use to watch.
eating the food.snacks i always.sometimes eat..
my life is getting soo boring.yet ii still can't go out to work.
how ii wish my life wasn't having any changes.wasn't having any move.
i wish to turn back the clock and choose to stop going work @ST.
ii guess by then everything wont be happening.three person wont be hurt.
This few days talking to Guoqing on phone..we always start to quarrel..
its mostly on the same issues we always did.ii think we both stressed out!
Guoqing said something most hurtful to me yesterday night and today..
he really didn't give me any contact till i text him.and he suddenly called.
i admit im happy that he called.but end up when i talk to him on phone i cry badly.
im confused.im stressed.im lost like a girl lost her way home :(
the feeling.thinking and what im going through now no one can understand!
To:Guoqing...
i know what you hopping from me.i know what you wish from me.
but i guess its gonna be the most hard things i will ever do for you.
i hope you understand me too.i wants you accompany me on 23.11.09!
i hope you can see my check up too.and then make your decision :)
To:Clement...
Thanks for being there!your always there even everyone walked off.
i know you will always stand by me.but remember when you got a girl..
you have to put me first too!hahahahahahas :) i love you bro/sub :)
Labels: who can understand me..?
what we could have been, 3:26 AM.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
From today till my life end its a DEAD END for me..
im going fall to the lowest of my life le!!
Today went to see doctor and ii get my result :(
its the same result!well the doctor refer me to hospital for check up.
it's already been here for 2months and 1week..Labels: DEAD END......
what we could have been, 2:31 AM.
Today actually didn't plan to go anywhere with anyone..
but woke up alone at home :( jie's still sleeping with boyfriend..
soo ii message Clement ask him wanna go for lunch..ii have a craving for long john.
he reply saying he's still not fully awake..soo ii waited for him to be awake.
he message me at 3.10pm..asking me get ready to go out..soo ii prepare myself.
and we went to *Compass point* for our lunch at LongJohn~ took my watch to repair.
but sadly they don't have repair :( soo ii can only change my another watch's battery.
Crys!ii don't know why ii keep feel like vomiting after eating my meal :(
this feeling really fuck the hell up of mine!!! nearly cry out..walked to interchange.
we going down *Rivervale plaza* as Clement wants to buy his army things.
when we reach there ii wanna go toilet because ii wanna vomit le..can't hold on anymore.
rushed to toilet and throw out everything ii ate :( ouch!my throat hurts :(
after toilet went to buy his things then headed home..but around 9plus ii message him..
ask him could he accompany me down to *Jalan Kayu* to buy my dinner?
he agreed.and we went there by cab..ii packed prata home.kinda lot share..but no one eat.
was abit down with it.but no choice..anyway watch vcd with Clement and Dad watched awhile.
im turning in soo..its already 3am!guess Clement fall asleep already.
and Guoqing's sleeping too..ii wonder what happened to Pang..hai~
Labels: went out with Clement :)
what we could have been, 3:00 AM.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Today actually should be meeting Guoqing for sentosa trip..
but end up his friend got bike accident o.O soo we didn't meet.
he went down to visit his friend with Rong along.ii went out with Clement!
headed to *Town* again!went for another movie too~
we both waiting for 3am as that's the time for our movie!hahahahahahas :)
well Clement your wasting your money to catch all the small soft-toy for me..
ii hope you don't ever be silly again..to wast your money again alright.?
after movie we took cab home @5.30am!!!wooots morning!~
im going off to sleep already!
Labels: movie with Clement...
what we could have been, 7:34 AM.
Today went out with Guoqing.
headed over to town for movie session~well everything was well.
but before he fetch me at my house downstairs we did quarrel.
ii don't really understand why we did..but things are good now. :)
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goodnight~~
Labels: WENT TO WATCH MOVIE~
what we could have been, 8:11 AM.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Today went to Jurong there with parents and mei.
went there for Badminton Session :) Daddy's friend booked court.
well ii was hopping to jump lot..but well nothing happened after jumping.
hahahahahahahahas:)thought something will be worst to happen..
went home after 10pm..Daddy chat with his friends from 9 till 10pm :)
im sooo bored while they chatting there.keep press message!hahahahahahas:)
Thanks Clement & Guoqing for all the accompany you give~
Labels: why worst thing didn't come....
what we could have been, 4:34 AM.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
My life is getting worst to worst~
seriously ii don't know why and what's happening to it.
just feel soo lost everyday.every morning i woke up and everynight before i sleep.
ii just feel im the world most lost girl.like im always alone in my own world.
no one was here with me..even when friends did stay by my side messaging me..
ii just feel soo alone and like no one really understand what im doing..thinking.hoping.
Mum talk to me about "H" asking me how i want things to be now.?
all ii can answer was ii wanna go back in schooling life.start a new.
but seriously ii really don't bear to get rid of "H" :( im scare of taking it away.
i just felt soo heartless when mum say its no choice de :( my heart felt a deep stab!
ii can't explain why to my feeling..its totally hurtful when i know ii can't do anything to help it.
im very very sorry to it.i wish to keep on going with it.but its impossible :( sorry.
ii know Dad wants it soo much.ii know it and ii can feel it..but ii know its hard to have it.
im soo sorry Pang. & Daddy.
everyday waking up im scare to hurt Daddy..every night before sleeping ii think of Pang.
thinking how much ii have hurt him..thinking how badly he was doing now..im sorry.
everyday ii wish to say sorry to him but ii know what he will say to me was nevermind..
he will always say its not my fault.its his silly thinking and movement all that.im sorry.
i hope you did read this post i wrote.because when i write till this part tears flow..
ii have to admit i have a very very soft heart.im sorry.but ii know sorry wont solve your pain.
ii wont ask for your forgiveness..but i hope you can stop blaming yourself alright.?
hope everyday your happy with your life without me.i hope nothing is going happen to you.
Labels: im sorry Pang...
what we could have been, 12:27 AM.
Pang I'm very sorry.
im going start a new fresh me and throw away all my tears..
i hope i can do it without anyone's help beside my parents and sisters~
i want to go back to study.and have a nice planning for future.
i hope i can stop thinking of other things now..
Labels: im starting new...
what we could have been, 1:54 AM.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO CLARISSA!
Happy birthday to you~hope in this year you will become a real lovely lady :)
hope you will grow prettier and look more lovely.all the best!
sorry wasn't able to attend your birthday party.but hope you did enjoy. Labels: happy 19th birthday~
what we could have been, 6:08 AM.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO JESSICA.
happy birthday to you and wish you all the best in whatever you do.
wish you happy for now and ever~ do treasure your life forever.
must smiles always!do remember you de me~~
Labels: happy birthday to you~
what we could have been, 5:45 AM.
